3:12pm
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Wow, the last time I wrote in here was when Ryan broke up with me. I was writing stuff on my phone but then I had to reset it so I ended up losing everything. There weren’t a crapload of notes in there but there were plenty. :(. Oh well. Also, it got to be too much to write everything out so it was just easier to type. I feel like my life halted for a while after the whole break up. But it’s getting back to normal now… I feel like playing the piano, reading, writing, and listening to my favorite music again. And today (after I’m done writing this), I’m gonna make myself something to eat and then I want to go swimming. Ahhhh that sounds so good.
I was supposed to visit Korey today but I’ve called him twice and he hasn’t picked up so instead of staying in bed I want to be out in the world--oh I should also go to the library to see what kind of volunteer stuff they have.
Okay so… you know how Barry and I have been hanging out lately? Well, today he told me that starting tomorrow he is going to have the place to himself for a whole week. I’m a little nervous about this. We has a conversation and I told him that I wanted to be “with” him (not like in a relationship, just the other thing)--lol that makes me sound like a slut or something, ew. Anyway, he said that it’s not like he wouldn’t love to but he wasn’t planning on it (at least not with his mom within earshot). So that made me feel better because I didn’t have to worry about getting caught in a compromising position or anything, which is mostly why I stopped it before. That and--well--I could.
So I guess now he will have the place all to himself and I feel like… well SHOULD I go over there? Does he expect sex from me now? Will he still be sweet and gentle or am I going to get mauled? If that happened I could defend myself but I don’t want to against someone who I like and trust right now. Not to mention… my period is supposed to get here. It’s actually late already so… I dunno when it’s gonna get here. If it’s tomorrow… then… oh well. I will definitely keep you posted on all of this. I’m glad that I at least decided that I wanted to do this before today, lol.
Le sigh…. I feel so bad for my friend, Alex. She had to say goodbye to her dog before New Years and then her gramma passed away and now her baby has a double ear infection. I feel like I should go over there but ugh it’s a little far.
Alright… I need to get a move on if I’m gonna make a library run.
Love you!
Rita bo Bita
4:19pm
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