3/10/11

3/10/11

Hey Lady,
Boy is it a rainy day here in FL.  I really don't mind it, it fits my mood perfectly.  I'm so irritated with people today.  I know it's mostly PMS but grrrr.  I spent an hour and a half on the phone with Sara last night.  She wanted to set up a Facebook for Winter so Winter could talk to me.  Let me just tell ya, that girl is definitely not very bright.  I had to help her set up an email first.  Ugh it took forever.  So, I just realized that Dave and Dan only lent me season 1 of Dexter.  So now I have to watch season 2 on the computer cuz of the missing disk.  I just wanna watch it on tv so I don't have to be interrupted by a waiting period like online.  That's partially why I finally bought all 4 seasons of Instant Star, lol.  Plus I just go through periods where all I want to do is watch some Alexz Johnson and Tim Rozon.  He is so beautiful!  I really do like the dark haired cuties.  Sigh.  Whatever!  Anyways, so not much to write about.  Sorry.  Oh!  Let me tell you how fed up with Erica and Justin I am.  She has now ditched me for Justin at least 3 times.  I get that he is her boyfriend but it's really getting annoying.  I'm 99% sure I NEVER did that to my friends when I was dating someone -- except for you and that was me pushing you away because I was in a bad place.  I'm ready to just tell Erica and Justin to stuff it.  I know she met him first but why even pretend to be friends with me if you're just going to contiuously ditch me?  So I haven't decided whether to ignore them until I know what to say.  BRB, cats distracting!  She sent me a text about a half an hour ago telling me she's not good today.  I didn't even answer.  Maybe she should tell Justin about it.  Am I terrible or what?!?  Oh well, I'll shake it off at some point.  I just told my mom about the invitation Jes and David sent me for their joke of a wedding.  She really found it funny.  She was like, "Did they sent it because you're friends or just because they have bad taste?"  LOL.  I really don't know.  I wonder if they're throwing it in my face or if they're just that stupid.  I don't freaking know.  I wish I could just let it go.  I'm not sure why it bothers me so damn much.  I get so mad when I think about how he used me.  In my deepest of hearts, I believe he used me and never loved me back.  I know if anyone can understand why I feel that way -- it's you.  I don't think I have to go through it all to explain myself.  Do I?  I might later on but right now, it's too exhausting.

Love,
Star