Saturday, June 14, 2014

dream for 10/14/10

10/14/2010
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My Dream:
I had a dream about Brian, and I think this was the most pathetic one in a long time.  I drove myself to his place because there was some stuff I forgot that I really needed.  So I go there and there’s this girl who I think is supposed to be Alisha.  Apparently Brian had no idea I was breaking up with him because he was acting all goofy and distracted.  So Alisha started asking me all these questions like why I was doing this and why I knew he wasn’t the One.  I just told her that I needed to get away from him to breathe.  I went inside this room that had a lot of fold down tables and on those tables were boxes.  I had to figure out real quick which stuff I wanted.  So I find this bag and I start putting stuff inside it.  He comes in the room and automatically my dog was at my side.  She wasn’t growling at him just letting him know that she was there.  I pick up a few journals and as I’m about to go he tries to kiss me.  I tell him to stop it and my dog starts growling.  He runs back into his room and I leave.  I go to this store and there’s all these other people I’m supposed to know but I don’t really (in real life).  They all ask me if I’m okay and I see this plant.  Actually, it’s three teeny plants.  I watered that one and it grew immediately.  There were these purple flowers on it that moved.  Then there was this appointment I was trying to make but I couldn’t because I was too far away so this guy yelled at me that he would have his secretary reschedule and I’m trying to tell him I will and he says “whatever” and hangs up.  When I’m in the bar (it was a bar, not a store), he calls back saying he rescheduled my appointment.  All this time my dog is following me.  Wait, I go into a bar first where my pants and the people are, then I go to a store.  A bar to tell people, and a store to get stuff for the ride home.

My Interpretation:
My Brian dreams are often like this.  Whenever he pops up in my subconscious, it’s always chaotic like this.  Even though I’ve moved past the whole experience, it’s like when someone dies a horrible death and they are forced to repeat the moment they died over and over again forever (you watch Supernatural so you would understand what I mean).  I think the flower growing immediately after I left symbolizes the power I felt for finally leaving.  And I never liked Alisha.  It’s nothing personal against her but I just got this unsettling feeling around her.  And it wasn’t just a normal “I’ll just tolerate this person” type feeling.  It was like, the red button was being pushed and sirens were blazing kind of feeling.  I think she showed up in my dream cuz they’re roommates (Alisha and Brian).  I think this dream was just telling me what I already know: that I didn’t leave in the right way, but at least I got out of there and home safe.  What I mean is, I waited till the last minute to pack and get ready when I should have been doing that all along and I know that everyone that I used to be friends with or knew down there was against me now so instead of understanding they would all hound me for leaving even though they all hated me to begin with.

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