4:13am
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Hey Chels,
Yay I can finally write a full entry to you without getting interrupted. Well, it’s 5:14am on a Sunday, November 14th and I ended up taking a nap. I finally figured out why I can’t sleep when I’m in the same bed as my boyfriend. See, the bed is big enough for two, if those two people stay on their side of the bed. I was drifting off to sleep, or at least trying to, when I kept getting someone trying to roll himself on top of me. I thought since I’m not getting any sleep, I may as well grab my phone and my book. The second I got up, guess who moved to the middle of the bed. As I’m writing this, my left elbow is a little off the bed. If I ever move down here, we are getting a bigger bed. Because I cannot only get sleep when I’m the only one in bed. It’s just not possible. And rolling him over doesn’t work because he will fight me on moving. So, like I said, I will probably pass out on the plane, then come home and crash.
This sucks. I really wanted to make video of Ryan for you, but I haven’t gotten the chance to yet. I was gonna record him going in the ocean. But I didn’t get the chance because I felt like shit today. And I doubt that we are going anywhere tomorrow. By the time I pass out who knows when I’ll wake up. So… we will prolly end up staying in to watch football (oh boy). I don’t even know if I even want to go anywhere. I wish Juno wasn’t so far away. Either that or I wish he would take me to the beach here but it’s not the same. I’m gonna at least try to get a pic of him with his beard he’s got going on. I just wanted to show you what he looks like now. Argh.
I am so happy for you, Chels!! Not only did you somehow manage to snag a guy, you went for your ex bff’s latest crush. I think that is completely amazing. I don’t think you’re a man stealer at all, but I just think Erin has the attention span of a piece of lint when it comes to boys (or people’s feelings). I do think it’s funny that she sort of defended you towards that Eddy guy and look how that turned out. I am so glad I don’t have to be nice anymore when it comes to Erin. Or David. I know that I didn’t always hide my feelings before, especially when David put you through all that shit in Ohio, but now it just feels good that you finally see where I’m coming from. Even if I told you that you guys were on the same side, you would argue with me. But that whole thing was just toxic. It’s not that I never think your friends are good enough for you. It’s just that, especially with the people who were around you at the time, everyone just wanted to suck all of your energy dry. And I felt like (and still feel) Erin wanted my spot. She wasn’t interested in all of us being friends. She was interested in being your best friend. She was jealous that you and I were closer (we had known each other for 6 years at that point, of course we were going to be closer) and she just wanted you to listen to HER, not me. I never wanted to control you or think that you should FOLLOW me… I just wanted you to be you.
Ugh I feel like I’m being squished. I can’t wait till I’m finally in my own bed. No kicking, no cover stealing, no snoring. Just me. Of course, after about a day I’m gonna miss him again. I hate this crap. I am going to bring some sleeping pills next time because obviously I need them. The fact that I’ve managed to get any sleep this week amazes me.
Love,
Rita
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