Dreams

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I’ve chosen to add my dreams in here but didn’t care so much about the interpretations so I’m only going to write down the dreams that I have saved.
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Hey!!!!
I had debated on putting this in my diary or making a new journal and I just thought it would be a good idea to put it in the pink journal, along with all the pictures, poems, and all of the other stuff I didn’t have a place for.  I think that journal is eclectic and reflections on all of the different projects you and I share :).  I wish we had written more poems together but I know that we both have been scatterbrained when it comes to sitting down and actually writing.  I got what i got and I have to make the most of it.

10/1/2010:
dream:
I had a dream that I was supposed to meet Cory downtown on his birthday.  Apparently my dad wanted to go too but instead of taking the train he wanted to drive so I’m sitting behind him and of course he gets distracted so I have to drive from the backseat.  I don’t tell anyone why I’m there I just sort of drop my dad off somewhere and go off on my own.  I end up getting lost and these guys have to save me.  I do remember there being an auditorium filled with people and this guy sends two tigers out into the crowd and he tries to call them back but there’s a special way to do it.  And also I was walking down the hallway to the auditorium and i saw a whole bunch of guys standing around drawing murals on the walls.  I looked at them and they were so beautiful.  They were flowers, lillies, and they were white.

my thoughts:
**note** This is probably the one and only dream I will ever do an interpretation of that isn’t my own.  As I was writing all of this out I thought that whenever we have keywords or things to look out for, we always put what some book says it should be.  What I want to do is guess for myself what my own dream means.  It could be wrong, but that’s the beauty of dream interpretation.  Now, ever since I have been writing my dreams out, I have been noticing repeating situations and keywords.  The biggest one so far is bathrooms and being lost in a building and trying to get out.  Also, being around people I have no idea who they are in my waking life.  If there is any more room in this journal when I’m done, I’d like you to finish it with anything you want: pictures, poems, dreams, song lyrics… whatever.  The choice is yours, my dear!!

Okay, with that said, I think that my own interpretation of this dream says that I missed Cory’s birthday.  The last time I talked to him in real life was 2 weeks before his birthday and he stopped coming online and stopped answering my texts.  It was really hard for me at first because I had spent the last.. what… 12 years?  Looking for him??  And then he just sort of slips away again.  The driving in my dream probably means that my dad, who is supposed to be the head of the house, looks to me to help him make decisions since I’m his primary caregiver.  On one hand, I’m okay with looking after him and will gladly do it but on the other hand he literally “drives” me crazy and I literally feel like a backseat driver.
As for the art, the fact that I was trying to find Cory (someone from my past) means that I was so happy to finally be able to wish him a happy birthday because it had been so long since I was actually able to do it.  And then I was secretly crushed when I couldn’t do it because he was nowhere to be found.  So, I think all in all, it is dealing with 2 men in my life.  One that represents my past, one that I’ve pined for and hoped to talk to again for so long, and another that represents my present and foreseeable future.