4:05pm
Hey Chels,
What's up? I am sitting in the cafe of my library right now. Just checked out some more books and got myself a chai tea latte which I have to say is quite good. So, apparently my first day back would be tomorrow, not yesterday OR today. Yesterday was sort of weird. I texted B in the morning and didn't hear from him so after a while I was just like, "oh well, he must be sleeping." so I ended up going the whole day without hearing from him. So, this morning I checked my phone and still no text back from him! So, I have to admit it pissed me off a little. I sent him this text that was like: "I haven't heard from you in a while so either you were involved in something that prevented you from texting me or you don't like me anymore. Either way I think I deserve an answer." lol, I guess now it seems silly but in a way I felt like I needed to hear that he did like me. I know he does but it's nice to hear. He told me I could have texted him again. I know I very well could have but when I didn't hear from him for so long I started to think: "well if I text him again, wouldn't that seem a little needy? What if he didn't answer again? I don't want to be the girl that freaks out over something stupid like that." So I just told him that I was sort of taking a break from texting yesterday (which I sort of was but mostly because of HIM). He's like, "see there you go, you silly girl." Then I said, "you've been silly before, I kind of figured it was my turn."
I don't know if what happened constituted "freaking out", but maybe I did a little. I was trying so hard not to be a "girl" by giving him his space and this morning I really acted like one. I did have a really cool day yesterday though. I ended up going to the park. Then I watched a couple movies, took my dad to Spanky's, took a bath and started watching Gilmore Girls. Today I'm hanging out at the library writing to you. So. All in all it wasn't so bad. I think that once a week I'm gonna just turn my phone off and have a day that is really and truly for myself.
Alright, I want to read for a bit and then go back upstairs and find some tarot card books so I can try some new stuff out on you. Hehe.
Love,
Me
4:31pm
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