1:21pm
WTF dude my period is like over a week late. This happened last year too during the winter time… I was 6 weeks late. My mom actually bought me a pregnancy test (which thankfully came out negative). I have no idea why, but Ryan was so freaked out by the fact that {to him} I look “a little pregnant.” This is what normal women look like, asshole.
Anywho… so yeah… Sunday. It was an incredibly strange day. Saturday night I went to my favorite bookstore in the world, Borders (in Geneva). Well, Barry was having dinner with his dad one town over (in Batavia). I was in the psychology section reading a book and he asks me if I’m still there and which section am I in? So I tell him and like 5 minutes later he shows up. So we end up staying until the store closes and then he asks me what I was doing tomorrow (Sunday). I didn’t have any plans so I go over to his house around 2:30pm. Oh and before this I had a conversation with Korey about Barry, things like he’s “stalking” me again and Korey was implying that Barry was “getting back at him” for screwing things up with his last girlfriend (who wasn’t even REALLY his girlfriend). So he (Korey) was basically pleading with me not to sleep with Barry because it would make him feel better about this whole situation.
Oh and he also asked me to take a walk with him because he didn’t have his daughter for a few hours and I said no because I already made plans with Barry (which was true). Then he was all like “Well that fucks up my plans for the day.” Then I said that he fucked up my plans for Friday by being asleep both times I called and then never calling me back. He just said, “I was sleeping with my daughter, I have to sleep when she lets me.” I said, “I know” and he said, “Well then don’t make me feel guilty.” Guilty?!?!? He was the one JUST telling me that I ruined his plans for the day and he wishes he had “real friends” to hang out with. I’m almost sorry that I even started talking to him again, tbh.
Anyhow, so Barry and I watched some football and after the game things got a little heated and we tried having sex but it didn’t work. After a while we tried again and it didn’t work (I guess because I was really tight and he couldn’t get in). This went on pretty much the whole time until finally things worked out. At first he was on top and after a while we both had to take a break and then I was on top and we lasted longer (probably because I’m lighter or whatever, I don’t know). It went pretty much like I expected it to except he kept spanking me which felt good at the time but now my butt cheek is sore. That and my arms hurt and I still have no idea how that happened.
It was nice being with him and I’m glad that it happened but the weird thing (to me) is that I still feel the same way that I felt about him before any of this happened. I know he’s still the same person; not much could possibly change in 2 days. Really the only thing that has changed is the fact that he’s been inside me. I dunno what will become of this if anything, but I know that I’m still not ready for a boyfriend. I dunno if I want to sleep with anybody else but to me this doesn’t change the fact that I’m single. Also I don’t want to think of him as a “fuck buddy” or FWB or anything like that. He’s just my friend and that is what he shall remain unless feelings change.
Alright well… today should be fun…. Barry wakes up from his nap we are going to go swimming at his gym (not funny business though, communal water is gross) Lol.
Love,
me
2:02pm
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