Friday, July 4, 2014

May 1st, 2011

May 1st, 2011
10:23am

Hey Chels,
Ugh I am so tired.  I'm supposed to pick up my dad from the airport but --shock -- no one can tell me when that is.  I gave my dad the e-ticket so he would know, but I wish I had copied more info on when he was coming home.  So, I guess I'll find out in a bit since no one can tell me the exact time.  Ugh I am so annoyed.
So, I was talking to Beverly last night and now I'm wishing I hadn't.  I love her, but she seems to think her boyfriend needs therapy, not her.  She made another baby with this guy who is basically a child himself. But like, why is she acting all surprised and hurt?  She is acting like it came out of nowhere, when I have been hearing the same shit for years.  It's been 2 at least since it's gotten this bad.  She feels the need to stick her big fat nose in when I decided to talk to you again, but she didn't say anything for a while about how she was getting back together with her boyfriend and how they had been trying to get pregnant.  And then he acts like this -- again.  The thing that really pisses me off is that I know someone who could really take care of this kid and get it away from all this drama and heartache .. But of course Beverly wants to keep it.  Talking about raising another baby alone.  You chose to get pregnant again!  I'm not gonna say anything else about adoption to her but I wish she could just see how raising another kid in this type of situation is just crap.  I just wish she would take the time and really think about the reality of having 2 kids with a guy who is not a good one, then teaching her kids that it's okay to go back.  She is so worried about Moses turning out like her bf, yet she doesn't see what is already happening -- daddy can be mean to mommy and she will always come back -- this must be how relationships are.  I hope and pray that she is done with him this time, but I keep hearing the same stuff she has been saying for years.

I miss Barry.  I haven't seen him all week and I really hope I get to see him tonight but, I dunno if I will get to.  This time though, if I stay past a certain hour I'm just gonna stay over.  Because I don't stay over and then I wish I had when I had the chance.

Eek!!
31 days!

11:05am

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