5:58pm
Hey Chels,
Well, happy day! I got paid, got back on Massageprep.com, and got your package! I'm gonna wait till next week to pay my phone bill, car insurance renewal, and get my sticker for my car. Then I can put $$ down for both my dr bill and ultrasound bill. I hope I can start my tarot card reader job soon so I can get extra money. So anyhow, thank you thank you THANK YOU for the package. I will be able to finish it up in no time as long as you keep writing more letters to put in it. I think I am going to clean up the charms a little bit and find some more stuff to put in the jewelry box. Ooh I have the perfect idea! But of course it's a surprise. Will prolly just think of little trinkets to find for you and send it off. Hopefully I get to do that soon!
I'm starting to read your nb and already have something to comment on! No, no one called me Rita Bo Bita before you. I have a couple friends who call me Rita Bonita and Rita Margarita, but no Bo Bita. I like the "bo" part the best, I think lol! And as for you feeling the way you do about David -- I understand because I always felt like he was using you. Maybe not in the beginning, but as time went on it was clear he didn't give a shit about you except when it came to sex. But.. I understand because I went through the same thing with Brian and we both went through that shit together. Part of the reason why I felt like I couldn't leave Florida yet was because I didn't feel safe leaving you. And the only reason why you ditched me was because you weren't mentally there anymore. It wasn't like Erica ditching you to be with her man because she's like that (or used to be, before you figured out she's bipolar), you had just mentally checked out. And I think I did too. Trust me, if there is anything you don't have to explain about, it's David.
Lol, I'm reading all this stuff about Erica and Justin and I have to laugh. What an idiot. And omg about Aaron and Mason. Aaron just, wow. Like he's all that and a bag of chips or whatever, saying you blew YOUR chances. It's not like you guys were going steady or whatever. You are a grown ass woman and can talk to whoever the FUCK you want to. And don't be sorry about the comment you left on Erica's page regarding the breakup. If Justin didn't want your opinion he shouldn't have brought you in the middle of it -- but the real thing is that you were just supporting your friend and if he couldn't handle that then too fucking damn bad for him.
Awww St Patty's Day stuff! So cute! Sucks that someone has to be such an asshole about it. Like he knows ANYTHING about St Patrick. Was he born in the 17th century? No? I didn't think so. Plus, that's one more thing I HATE about face book. People feel like they can say anything they want but Heaven forbid anyone else gets to comment. You don't want people to comment on your shit? Don't post anything then! Problem solved. The weird thing about your group and the group Brian had around us was all very similar. What I mean (and I just realized this when I was reading your message to Justin) is that when you have a big group where everyone knows everyone there are going to be hookups, romances, gossip and dramas. I tried to find my own friends in Brian's group because I felt that a lot of people only liked me because I was with Brian. Like, they didn't actually take the chance to get to know me at all.
I feel like there's some of that going on with you, especially when you're introduced to someone as so--and--so's significant other and then people break up. The hardest part is staying out of things when you want to be friends with both people. Out of Brian's friends and people I've met through him, I think I can only trust maybe 1 person, and that's Vor. But there are people who I'm friends with on Facebook that are actually cool with me so maybe SOME people can form their own opinions. It is a rarity though. I personally don't think you absolutely HAD to apologize to him. He did cheat on Erica and that is why they broke up and he does flirt with anything with breasts, so it's not like you were saying anything that wasn't true. And if he couldn't handle the truth, well, how is that your problem? That's right. IT'S NOT!
Lol, I realize that you wrote all of this a LONG time ago and it will probably be a longer time before you read my comments, but I don't care. I just hope you remember what you wrote about. Oh, btw, what is...oh nvm. I was gonna ask what the Adam section was but then I remember he is your friend that died last year. Duh.
I don't necessarily think you have an "everyone is out to get me" attitude. You have such an open heart and huge personality that people feel like they can just target you whenever THEY are having a shitty day. I think sometimes you let shit get to you but I also think that for the most part you do fairly well in letting shit roll off your back. What I used to notice was that you would just be over something a little too quickly. I felt like you would just put things in the back of your mind and not deal with them. But now you are so much better at asserting yourself and the people who have to get up in your face are just surprised and dunno what to do about it. So instead of looking inward they all lash out on you because it's easier to blame someone else than be honest with yourself. Sometimes there's nothing you CAN do besides remember that if someone gives you attitude that you didn't earn, it has little or nothing to do with you and EVERYTHING to do with them.
Wow this Flash Flood Bred + the Person guy is stupid. Don't drive your car when there's that much water on the ground! Duh. Hmm, you know I think Alexz Johnson lives in California? First and foremost, I would have to see my pal Dani. I think she would want me to go see her if I was ever in the area. Stupid thing is, I'd travel across the U.S. to see Dani but not walk up the street to see Jenne. Personally I think it's lame that I'm not as good of friends with either of them as I once was but at least Dani is nice and talks to me. Oh you should check out her new show, Casting office. Whenever you get the internet again, check out The Casting Office. Dani plays Doris.
Alrighty roo! I read up until the part where you saw the psychic and after that I had to FORCE myself to put the book down. First off, I can't believe David said all of that shit, but in a way I can. You think YOU have a lot of issues? Try being a guy who was so traumatized by having an absent mother that his solution to not having that happen again is marriage. Except that he abandoned his own child more than once. And you're DAMN RIGHT I never saw his side of anything. I was the one who actually gave a shit about you when he didn't. And I stood by you for as long as I could before things went to shit. I don't think he destroyed our friendship. He made it stronger because we both held onto each other in spite of everything. I had Brian complaining about you, too. But he was so quick to be buddy buddy with you once he realized we weren't talking anymore. After 4 years of nothing but garbage talk, he's your best friend. Brian is another piece of work with the same lame issues that David has. Maybe that's why David saw Brian's faults so quickly, they were his own.
Alright, I really need to at least finish this chapter before I go to bed. I love you and thank you so much for everything! I already have plans to fix up your purse. Dunno how yet but it will look gorgeous in there once I'm done (just want to replace the lining, although I'm not EXACTLY sure how to do that). Will show pix once I'm done.
<3,
Me
9:02pm
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