2:55pm
Hey Chels!
Wow… it’s Tuesday already. Voting day! I’m so excited. I love voting. My dad wants to wait until 4pm. So 57 minutes. Whee! Yesterday was crazy. I finally went through all the newspapers that were messing up my room. And I’m happy to announce that the dvd movie maker worked. It was the only program that let me use my own music, but surprisingly it wouldn’t work WITH the music. So, I made 2 dvds (which you’ve probably looked at already) and I made a soundtrack. I’ve decided that I’m gonna use up what I have first. It will probably last me till Christmas anyway. I just thought I needed a new journal. But I need to use this up first! I wish they had diaries this nice when I was younger. The lock and key diaries I always had were very cheaply made. This one is all kinds of nice.
I hope you’re doing okay today, Chels. First your friend dies on Halloween, then you hook up with a really cute guy and your body takes a crap on you. I’m not a doctor, but I don’t think that happened because of an STD. Oh and I’m gonna lecture you… I’m sorry but I say this out of love. Just remember that. Why don’t you ever make the guy wear a condom? I will buy you a pack if I have to. I don’t want you to get an STD or AIDS because of some stupid guy. I am not going to lose you to that disease. At least if you are protecting yourself, you are protecting the guy, too. I would stand by you in anything that happens to you, but I just want you to be as safe as you can be. I was gonna ask you last night because I completely understand about sex after not having it for a while. If it’s not perfect, a lot of things can go wrong. That’s why I was asking you if he warmed you up properly. After I broke up with Brian (In August), I didn’t have sex again until December. I was incredibly horny (even though Brian and I ended up only doing it twice a month in the last 8 months of our relationship). I know you and David had sex like everyday… I think he had some issues on that front. I mean, we all do, but he just confused sex for love. I always thought he wasn’t good enough for you. Brian wasn’t any better. Anyhow… my point is that you went from sex everyday to no sex. It’s weird… when you’re in a relationship, no matter how bad the sex is (not just physically), when it’s taken away, it’s still shocking. Ever since I’ve been with Ryan, I only have sex like every month ½ to 2 months. This is gonna sound weird, but yoga really helped prevent tearing. So maybe you could try it? Plus, it’s low impact so it would be good for whatever you have which sounds a lot like what I was dealing with a couple months ago. I really hope that you get better… I mean you can’t just stop pooping.
So… I finally voted! My dad almost signed the wrong name. The lady was distracted and gave him another guy’s information sheet and he was busy giggling and not paying attention. I checked the info and the address wasn’t right so I stopped him and said, “that’s not you.” The lady gave me a shocked look even though we had JUST been through first name/last name stuff. But we finally got everything straightened out.
Now it’s almost 5… well now it’s a little past. I’m enjoying just writing. Although, I haven’t read your notebook in a while so I think I will treat myself.
Peace, love, and bulletproof marshmellows,
me
5:06pm
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5:32pm
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Hey Chels,
Well, I read the first of the dream interpretations and I love how you did them! I’m so glad that I wrote down my dreams because I would not remember them.
I am taking my time reading the nb because I want it to last. I love having something to read everyday.
Oh… I actually remembered that I was going to use the black and white notebook (book club section) for my next “chapter” or whatever you want to call it. I figure I can use it for both. I have a special plan for the other one (the cool one with the marker). I totally forgot about that till just now. Wow am I an idiot. Lol.
Anywho, I think your dream interpretations were very insightful. Although I don’t think that you would run away from me again. I feel it in my gut that it’s different this time, ur not surrounded by negativity and we’re a little bit older and wiser.
I don’t have any desire to run away from you, either. I also think you’re right… life is all about change. Lucky for me, the symbolism is positive. I don’t think it’s luck so much as finally feeling at peace with myself. Maybe my subconscious was just remembering all the times I DID run away. Well, I’m gonna get going for now. I love you!
Love,
me
6:11pm
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