1:49am
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Chels--
OMG! ECLIPSE COMES OUT TOMORROW! YAAAAAAAAAAAY!
I have to get to sleep soon, but let me tell you it was weird not writing in here today. I’m getting stuff ready for this weekend, meaning more printouts and nbs. My mom says we’re supposed to be getting this huge snow tomorrow night/Saturday so I have no idea if I’m gonna go to my cousin Andy’s play on Friday or my mom’s boss’s wedding on Saturday, OR the flea market on Sunday. I want to pick out a piece and have Ryan pay for it and that will be my Christmas present.
So… I’m starting to get my friend back, which is good. I just mean you are feeling more like yourself again. I wasn’t afraid of losing you I just saw some of the old Chelsea creep up and it scared me a little. But if I were feeling miserable like you were, I would be like that too. Hell… my period is due next week and I am getting pissed about EVERYTHING. I still haven’t talked to Matt. I’m ignoring my friend Chris because he wears me out sometimes. He doesn’t like my boyfriend now because of what happened during the summer. Ryan has already apologized and I think that if I were somewhere outside not in his face when he got home, we’d have no problems. I know when I’m working on something and my parents and dog barge in, I want to scream GET OUT! But I can’t cuz I’m already alone most of the day.
Even though we fight sometimes it’s not a really big deal. If we live together… it better not be in that tiny ass apartment. I want at least 1 bedroom and an office or 2 bedrooms so we’re not in each other’s hair. Or how about an actual house? There’s a novel idea, lol. I still have to take my test again. When I get done with all this, I’m gonna renew the study guide for 3 months and at the end of that 3 months I’m gonna apply for the test and then schedule a day to take it. Hopefully THIS time, I should pass it. Then I want to get a job, maybe up here for a while until my credit is a little better. I have no idea how long this will take and I have no idea if Ryan and I will last.
I was talking to my mom about this on Saturday. It’s not like I don’t love him, because I do very much. But I’m just not putting all of my eggs in one basket. If it doesn’t work out then it doesn’t work out. A part of me really wants it to work, though.
Okay so I am debating, should I bring Firefly Lane or the nb (yours) to the hospital in the morning? The whole procedure takes about 3 hours. So I dunno. I kinda wanna save the nb for my outings. Of course, if I go by the rate I’m going, you might be done with the 2nd one before I finish it. It’s like.. I want to savor it. Please don’t think of it as I’m not giving a crap about it. But I just want to go somewhere quiet with no distractions whatsoever, curl up, and dig in. When I do get past parts you will know it cuz I gotta say SOMETHING, lol.
But I just remember the times where it was like the first time you read Twilight, you couldn’t put it down and by the time you were done, it was over. But it felt like only a minute had passed and you feel sort of disappointed that you didn’t take more time out.
Plus, I love carrying it around with me. Speaking of “Twilight,” I’m unsure if I commented on this already but no wonder you were getting sick of it. If someone in my life was comparing every relationship to the movie, I would scream. And I had a friend like that. Jackie. But for real? Almost every single person on this planet has been in some type of love triangle situation. Who hasn’t had feelings for someone that loved someone else?
I think they screwed the kiss up in Eclipse… they made it seem like Bella was a slut. But Jacob DID manipulate her. And that is no way to win someone’s affections.
Eek it’s almost 2:30am. I have to write my TIATF’s from the 1st and 2nd. It sucks cuz I have way more to write. Maybe I’ll bring this, the nb AND Firefly Lane to the hospital. You think I could pull all that off?
<3,
me
2:30am
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