Jan 25th, 2008

Jan 25th, 2008
11:50am

Holy hell you wrote a lot.  I haven't looked at the whole thing yet, but I think it's safe to say we'll have a new notebook by March, if not sooner!  First, I want to respond to a few things you said.

Everything you said about Ryan--so true.  It's so funny that as soon as David told me to go talk to Ryan and get closure, I knew instantly that it's not what I wanted.  Losing David is not an option.  I miss the good memories with Ryan--and that's when I think I still love him.  But then I remember how miserable I was for stupid teenage angst shit, and I'm like, oooooh.  Lol.  Plus, like I said--losing David is not an option.  He treats me so good.  He makes me feel special!  And beautiful.

Now, Amanda.  Let me tell you there is something special about that girl.  Maybe special isn't the right word.  Ok, like... she's very influential.  It reminds me of a story!

In 7th grade I met Charlotte.  Charlotte was very into sadistic/masochistic things.  She was very influential.  Or maybe I'm just easily influenced.
I mean, Amanda isn't sadistic or masochistic or anything, but so drawn to drama and so influential.  She was single so I wanted to be too.

I'm not going to make the effort to talk to her though.

Anyway, I'm feeling drowsy now.  So, me and my broken foot are going to sleep.

<3,
Chelsea
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Man, I am in some pain girl.  Whew.  I've slept all day. And I feel like I got hit by a truck.  Ewie.  I still can't believe I broke my foot.  Geeze.  David had to help me bathe and everything.  It sucks.  I hate being limited.  Those crutches have got to go, though.  I want to break 'em in half.  Lol.

Well as for what happened on Christmas, I'm going to say this and then I am hoping the topic can remain in the past.

--I don't just make excuses for David.  I have the tendency of misconstruing things he says and means.  I do think he wanted me to himself, but he also knew what you had to deal with.

--I wasn't mad at you for staying out there with him.  He's your friend too.  I'm glad he talks to you.  I just wish he talked to me too.

--2008 Christmas will kick ass.  Please, stop worrying about it. He apologized.  Lol.  We're good now.  I WANT A NEW PEN!  Grr.

So, here are my answers to your questions about new years/Christmas from page 31...
1) The best gift I've gotten for Christmas is my go-cart.  Which I crashed into the side of the house 2 days later.  It worked though still.  I was like 10.  Lol.  I don't remember why we sold it years later.

2) I did believe in Santa,  but I don't think it really mattered to me, either.  I found out when I was about 9 or so that Santa was mom/dad.  Lol.  And it didn't really break my heart cause I think I subconsciously knew...

Ok, chica.  I'll answer the rest tomorrow.  I'm sleepy.

Love always,
Chelsea