Dec 6th, 2007

Dec 6th, 2007
4:45pm

Hi!  Well, I got into a fight w/ hubby last night because of his attitude.  I just like EXPLODED on him. Turns out he went through this, and saw things I wrote about Ryan.  Pissed me off even more.  I ended up telling him he better quit questioning me and whatnot and that it was time to let what Sara did to him go or I could guarantee a divorce. And I meant it!  I just don't need this shit on top of everything else.  We're fine now but I'm still upset.  I'll get over it, but it better not happen again.  I told him I never got closure w/ Ryan, and that basically all I wanted was to see him so he'd want me, and I could say "ha, too bad" yea, it's childish so sue me.  I also told David that I downloaded a bunch of music that reminded me of Ryan and that it no longer did anything for me.  He's like, "well, I feel better now."

Good for you, bud. But why do I need to explain myself? Ugh. Grr.  Anyway, *shake it off* I'm trying to let it go now.

So, my mom goes to the hospital tomorrow to get a cardiac cathritarization (?) Lol to see what's going on. She might have to have an angioplasty or it might be gall stones.  *Sigh* What a year it's been for 2007.   I think as I come to a close in this notebook, I'll write all about my 2007.

It's 7:20pm now.  I'm wearing down quickly.  :/.  1 hr left thank God!  David and I are going to do some Christmas shopping after work.  Then I'll probably go to bed.  Sleepy...

I'm ashamed that I'm not farther along in here like I would normally be.  A part of me feels like giving up and just passing it on to you but I don't think I'd end up being happy with that decision.  I'm just worn out!

Well, poo.  I can't get ahold of my parents to see if someone will be there with my mom for her cardiac cathrization (sp) ugh.

1/2 an hour left in this hell hole.

I can't believe David is leaving for a week.  =(.  Again.  Blagh!