June 20th, 2012

June 20th, 2012
12:01am
Hey Chels,
I just got done with yoga and I really feel so much better!  It's amazing how it makes my body feel.  Ugh...I have been trying to clean out my turtle tank but the filter noise is driving me insane.  I think I'm gonna try and fix it tomorrow.  There was algae in the tank which was making the water yucky so I cleaned the tubing, then cleaned the filter and then changed the water AGAIN and it still doesn't look clear.  I've been taking care of this damn turtle for nearly 5 years and I still have no idea if I'm doing it right.  He's still alive so I must not be doing THAT poorly of a job, but I feel bad sometimes.  I just dunno what I'm doing when it comes to acquatic animals.  But I love him so much!  Sometimes I think about finding him a better home because I feel like a bad turtle mama, but then I look at him and I just love him.  I'm gonna spend some time doing some research on turtles and see if I can fix up his tank a bit and maybe that will make me feel better.  Because I want so badly to be the best turtle mama ever.  Okay so I learned that peeling is pretty common in turtles that bask a lot, which he does.  I'm gonna try and get him out in the sun more while it's still nice out, and I'm gonna buy new stuff for his filter (like carbon and stuff).  He could probably use new stuff.  And get a new heater for him and seriously clean out the buckets I use to clean his tank with.  So hopefully that should help!  And give him some more lettuce.

So... yesterday was Larry's birthday and the first time really talking to him in a while.  It was okay, nothing spectacular though.  But I'm glad that I did.  You know... it's not like I got ZERO support from him.  I didn't get as much as I wanted but it wasn't THAT bad.  But one day he will know how much it bothered me that he wouldn't come over just to give me a hug like I wanted or at least call me back.  I can't be perfect all the time but if we were in a relationship and I wanted a hug because my dad was sick and he didn't come through, BELIEVE me... I'd be fucking PISSED AND he would know about it.  Not a few months later but right at the moment.  But... it's over with now and it was quite possible that I overreacted a bit and he was being a bit of a pussy for not dealing with it the way I felt he should have.  Lol. That's all I'm gonna say about it (until I write you back).

Ugh I need to stop writing because I need to get ready for bed.  I just hope I can stay asleep longer than 5 hours. Oy with the poodles already!

<3,
me

12:38am