Part of Me

song #3: Part of me by Katy Perry

Days like this I want to drive away
pack my bags and watch your shadow fade
(when things get rough or crazy she wants to run away and get away from this guy who broke her heart.)

You chewed me up and spit me out
like I was poison in your mouth
(This must have been how she felt about his treatment of her, he treated her like she was less than nothing.)

You took my light, you drained me down
that was then, and this is now
now look at me
(this always makes me think about a negative entity or spirit.  the darkest spirits are always looking for bright lights so they can take everything and leave them with nothing.  but it's like that with people, too.  there are just some people who are attracted to you because of your light and they will stop at nothing to make sure you are nothing but a shell of your former self by the time they're through with you.

*chorus*
This is the part of me
that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no
This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no
Throw your sticks and your stones
throw your bombs and your blows
but you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
that you're not ever gonna ever take away from me, no
(this chorus is what made me fall in love with this song.  She's saying whatever he did to her was bad enough to make her feel low, but he will never get her spirit, the part that she keeps locked away.  maybe that's why they split, she would never give herself away completely. he could be as mean to her as he could be but she wasn't going to break.  that's how i feel about my ex.  he can say or do whatever to me but it won't break me.)

I just want to throw my phone away
Find out who is really there for me
(she is done with people calling her who know nothing about the situation but want to put their 2 cents in anyway.  In that world, it's hard to tell who is fake and who is for real.)

You ripped me off, your love was cheap
was always tearing at the seams
(this love came with a price and it wasn't pretty.  it was never a solid foundation for a relationship to really work.)

I fell deep and you let me down
that was then and this is now,
now look at me
(it was like she was under water, her love was blinded by how he really was and instead of grabbing her and letting her breathe, he just let her fall and drown, never to come up for air.)
(chorus)

Now look at me I'm sparkling
a firework, a dancing flame
you will never put me out again
I'm glowing
(now she feels so much better, she's found her light and she is lighting up without him weighing her down.)

So you can keep the diamond ring
it don't mean nothing anyway
in fact you can keep everything
yeah, yeah
except for me
(in her last dig at him, she says he can keep whatever he bought for her just to get out of her life and leave her alone.)

I picked this song because it came out AS SOON AS all this stuff happened with my ex.  i remember i was driving to my cousin amy's house in Aurora and the song came on and i immdiately started tearing up because it was like she was speaking directly to me.  this song has literally helped me so much this whole year.  i'm not really a huge fan of Katy Perry, either, but it was like she was describing exactly what i went through and i am always reminded that i am stronger without him.  so many people have mentioned to me that i look so happy and even my aura is lighter--even people who don't know me and just bump into me.  i even notice myself being lighter and happier than i've been in a VERY long time.