September 28th, 2012

 September 28th, 2012
 12:58am

Hey Chels,
 So... I got some news. My friend Nichole had her baby yesterday!! I'm going to the hospital today to see her. And also... I heard from Larry. He just started talking to me like we were buddies or whatever. It was kind of weird. I didn't bring anything bad up, I think I want to wait and see if he brings anything up and if he tries flirting with me or whatever. There was a time when I would have waited on fb all day for him to talk with me and checked 9 times to see if he was on but now... I stopped talking to him first. I told him I was tired and had to go to sleep. And then I left. I didn't tell him about James, I think it would be better (for me) to wait until he makes an ass out of himself before I tell him he can't talk to me that way because my boyfriend would appreciate it. It sounds mean but after everything he's put me through, I would love for something like that to actually happen.

I got to see James today and it was really nice. We didn't have sex because he was still sore from the last time and honestly I was too. So we watched something called American Horror Story. And when it got time for me to go, I really had to make myself go. I would love to just curl up with him and spend the whole night with him. But tonight wasn't good. I'm sure it will happen, though.

I also thought about something else. I'm going to make it a point, instead of having to pay to get my tarot cards read, that I'm going to start making the effort to make a feel for my own cards. And also read for you. And will document this in the new nb. I can't wait to start on that but I have to finish studying first.

I am gonna try to watch some Olga Kay for a bit and then get some sleep.

Love,
 Me

1:13am

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Jasper Whitlock Hale
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name: jasper whitlock hale
date of birth: 1844
date of transformation: 1863, at age 19
source of transformation: maria
place of origin: houston, texas
hair color: honey blond
eye color: brown (human); gold/black (vampire)
height: 6'3"
physical description: jasper is tall with a medium build, and his hair falls to just above his collar.  he has many scars from years of dealing with newborn vampires, but these scars are easily visible only to others with supernaturally good eyesight.
special abilities: jasper has the ability to both feel and manipulate the emotions of those around him.
education/occupation: he has attended high school and college several times.  he has degrees in philosophy and history.
hobbies: he is a natural scholar and an avid reader.  he has a shrewd mind for both business and battle tactics.
vehicle: jasper has the silver ducati motorcycle given to him by edward.
family/coven relationships: he is married to alice cullen. he considers carlisle and esme cullen to be his parents; edward cullen, rosalie hale, and emmett cullen to be his siblings; bella cullen to be his sister-in-law; and renesmee cullen to be his niece.  he also feels brotherly affection for nomadic vampires peter and charlotte.

personal history:
jasper whitlock grew up in houston, texas.  when he was almost seventeen, he lied about his age and volunteered to join the confederate army.  he rose quickly through the ranks, being promoted over older, more experienced men.  people though of jasper as charismatic.  this was likely due in part to early traces of the psychic ability jasper would develop after his transformation.  even as a human, jasper had a gift for empathizing with and influencing the emotions of those around him.
by the time the battle of Galveston began, jasper was the youngest major in the confederate army.  after leading a group of refugees from galveston to houston, he encountered three extraordinarily beautiful women--maria, nettie, and lucy.  maria--a vampire and head of her own coven--decided to transform jasper into a vampire for the newborn army she was creating.
maria chose her newborns more carefully than was usual.  she'd chosen jasper first because of his rank--which meant he'd had success in a military system--and second because of that charastmatic quality that had always drawn other humans to him.  jasper was naturally gifted as a warrior and a leader.  his ability to control the emotional environment around him, although not yet fully developed, made maria's army more effective.
a bond formed between jasper and maria.  she came to depend on him more and more and grew quite fond of him.  for jasper, maria's army was the only vampire life he had known, and he had no idea anything else was possible for him.
one of jasper's regular tasks was to execute members of the coven who had outlived their newborn strength and developed no other skills that made them valuable to the army.  eventually he had help in this task from peter, another former newborn who had proved himself worthy of being kept around.  jasper liked peter for his oddly civilized nature.  they became friends.
one night as he and peter were carrying out the grim task of dispatching age-weakened newborns, jasper could feel the unusually difficult emotional toll it was taking on his friend.  when jasper called out a newborn named Charlotte, peter suddenly erupted in fear and fury.  he yelled for charlotte to run, then bolted after her.  jasper could easily have caught them, but chose not to.
as the years passed, jasper became depressed, tired of always being surrounded by the devastating emotions of those he killed.  maria was not pleased with this alteration.  he began to notice a change in her emotions around him; sometimes she was fearful, sometimes malicious. he knew maria was thinking about getting rid of him, and jasper began planning how he would destroy her first.
at this critical moment, peter came back to find jasper.  he told jasper of an alternative he had never imagined: peter and charlotte had been living peacefully in the north for the last five years, meeting several other covens that coexisted amicably.  jasper left with peter immediately.
he traveled with peter and charlotte for a few years, but even in the more peaceful north, his depression didn't lift.  though he was killing only humans now, he was still subject to their emotions as they died.
jasper's misery stayed with him, and eventually he left peter and charlotte.  he tried to kill less often, but the thirst always grew overwhelming.
in 1948, jasper encountered alice.  she approached jasper as if they were close friends and told him he'd kept her waiting a long time.  jasper was puzzled and wary, but alice's joyful emotions impacted him greatly.  when alice held out her hand, he took it.  and he felt an unfamiliar emotion: hope.
alice explained her vision of the cullens, and she described the lifestyle of carlisle and his family. jasper found it all hard to believe, but he and alice set off to find them.  once they did, alice and jasper were quickly welcomed into the family.  jasper started using the last name Hale because he and rosalie looked related, and people assumed they were siblings.  it made sense to go along with what humans already seemed inclined to believe.  at carlisle's suggestion, alice and jasper were married shortly after joining the cullens.
jasper became fond of the members of his new family but never developed the deep bonds with them that alice did.  jasper chose to live with the cullens in order to stay with alice, and because the "vegetarian" lifestyle, though exceptionally difficult for him, freed him from the negative emotions that had so depressed him.