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Good afternoon, babe! I am at the library. I have good news and bad news. The bad news is I called Steinmart again, and Rico wasn’t there--again. The lady said, “He’s been out all week, maybe tomorrow.” I saw like, “oh no, is there another manager I can talk to about my application? She says, “No, he’s the only one.” *head desk* Now, what’s going to happen is I won’t get the job because he won’t think I called so I won’t be interested enough for him. I won’t even get an interview. I’m sorry for my negative outlook I’m just frustrated. I’m tired of depending on Brian for everything and not helping him. I see all these people getting jobs and it’s just like, come on. I wish someone would give me a chance at a job I’d be happy at. Maybe third time is a charm and he’ll be there tomorrow. You know what? I’m not giving up, I will call every day if I have to and just pray that the job hasn’t been given away! So keep me in your thoughts and prayers, toots! I need employment. So does 90% of the population, I get it, but we’re talking about me here. In a while, I’ll log on a computer and look for another job but I’m going to call Costco and Walmart and Steinmart tomorrow because I need to be more productive about my job search. I mean hello self nothing is handed to you -- you gotta work for things. I don’t know why the fuck I haven’t called more. I’m crazy I think. Or not very bright anyway. It’s like a big huge DUH moment I’m having. Lmao. The good news is I don’t owe money to the library, I’m 73 pages away from finishing the book I’m reading, I’m at the library, I may try to make my video tonight, and I’m going to be more productive about my job hunt! So there.
So here’s what I’m planning for my Round 8 video for YouTube Idol:
{YTI stuff}
Now that I’ve written all the lyrics, I shouldn’t have problems with that. It’s just timing now and perfecting the video. It’s a fairly simple song so I’m crossing my fingers to do it well. I think it would be good in black and white. Maybe the intro would be better with a title page… hmmm. I LOVE the intro, it reminds me of riding on a carousel--like very carnivalesque. Lol. If there was a way to do this at the fair, I would. But no. I’m sure I will do some tweaking here and there but I have confidence this will be a good week for me. It damn well better be. Next week (or soon anyway) I think we’re going to have a Nicki Minaj (puke) or rap week. We may be saying goodbye to me then. Lol.
Oh I forgot to tell you that I talked to Brian about feeling weird about getting into this band thing if we’re just going to move and he says he thought of that also, and he thinks it’s ok because if things are better financially, then we can stay. So I guess we’ll just see what happens in the next few months. I do need to relax on the whole moving to Indiana thing though so I just need to enjoy my projects lmao. I always jump in all at once. I gotta CHILL DUDE.
Aw, Melissa just sent me a text message telling me Adam’s dad is on TV talking to a school about his experience. (he was an astronaut on Apollo 11 I think). I’m so sad I’m not home watching. Crap crap crap. :(
I really miss Adam, but he’d be happy that I’m with a good guy that I love a lot. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ADAM!
So wow it’s already 3:16pm Brian is off at 5. Time always flies now. He’ll grab me, we’ll figure dinner out, see Brody, maybe do my video, watch AHS:A and Boy Meets World, and go to bed. Yea. I feel like I barely bat an eyelash lol.
Ok, so, tomorrow:
--wake up
--take meds
--walk Uturn
--make my shake
--call:
Steinmart
Walmart
Costco
--Clean room/do laundry
--clean floors downstairs
--take a nice walk
--do some sit ups
--READ
I’m not sure if I’m going to Brian’s for war crack or not. I really hope we do my video tonight so this weekend we can just chillax. I’m not in a Skeeters mood (I never really am anymore) but maybe we can do something else. Saturday is Gabby’s birthday so I need to figure out a gift for that. She’ll be 5! God, kids grow up fast. Brody will be 10 February 20th. I met him when he was 8 and Gabby was 3! Awwww. I love those kids. Funny how in the beginning I bitched so much about Brody and now my outlook has totally changed. I haven’t heard from Winter. She’s probably mad that I haven’t sent her anything. I wish I could. It sucks being broke, Rita. There’s so many things I want to do! Bills mostly lol. But I just want to be able to do things for the people I love. COME ON JOB! I need you. God I hate my handwriting. I want yours. Lmao I think I’ve said that a few times throughout this volume. In other news, I think my stomach is finally shrinking. I’ve had one shake (w/ banana, 1 tbsp pnut btr, almond milk, and powder) and half a bag of popcorn. I was full so I couldn’t finish it. Yay body! It may love me again soon. Wheee. I just want to look somewhat the way I did before I went to Ohio. I know I can do this.
Next Month Plans:
Start studying for MA certification
see about another externship
get glasses
get license
work on getting a job
work on review videos
decorate vol 11 box
send this baby off.
I can do it I can I can I can
I can do it I can I can I can
I can do it I can I can I can
I can do it I can I can I can
I made it to page 100! Squee! Now, it’s nearly 4pm. I am going to finish the chapter I’m on and look at books while I wait for Brian to get off from work.
Lymtl,
Chels
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