Dec 2nd, 2012

Dec 2nd, 2012
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Merry Sunday!  I wanted to write all colorful but this isn’t working out so well because it’s messed up my first marker!  I’m not sure, but the tip got pushed down.  So weird.  So I wanted to write Friday and yesterday but I’ve just been so busy with cleaning, decorating, party, parade, and running around.  It’s been so fun, yet so exhausting.  The good news is that it means more to write in this baby.  So big yay!  Lmao.
So, as promised, I am going to tell you the rest of my birthday week beginning on the next page.  Then I think I will finally transfer book review stuff to the other compositions.  This week I want to make a New Year I’m Thankful For box and a Rita letter box, so I’m going to be crafty!  I love when I’m crafty!  I also want to start my holiday nb which I have new ideas for.  I’m trying to decide if I should do it for my NEXT nb though and do holidays/pictures in THIS nb but part 2 if that makes sense.  Hmmmm.  I think I’m going to have:
--this nb (writing only)
--nb 2 (writing/health log/holiday/pics)
--things I’m thankful for
--nb ideas
--hello kitty poem book
--book reviews
--stories
--video reviews
--matching composition review book
--maybe NB 3 if I need it.
That’s 9 or 10 parts.  Craziness.  The good news is that the hardest part will be getting the videos on a cd.  It would be fine if I had my own computer.  And not for nothing, I want my own laptop.  I’m sick of being given computers I can’t use.  The gesture is always appreciated but I want to get a good working laptop.  So now that my dad’s friend has offered me his daughter’s PC if she gets a laptop, my dad most likely won’t get me a laptop.  I just want one from a pawn shop.  I want to be able to take in places with me so Rory can’t use it, and so I can stop bothering Brian to use his.  *sigh* I think I have a plan, though.  It means waiting longer for a computer but you know what they say…. “Patience is a virtue.”  So, with my income taxes I will buy myself a laptop and give the rest to school loans.  Hopefully I’ll have a job so I can pay my phone, my dad and clothes when I lose weight.  Man life is frustrating when you’re broke.  It’s frustrating anyway… but ugh.  We’ll see what happens though.  I mean life laughs when we make our own plans, so we will see what happens.  Anyway, I guess I should actually tell you about my birthday now since I keep promising and then I get sidetracked.  Well as you know, Rory made the first few hours of my birthday miserable!  I won’t waste time talking about that again though.  Brian was the first to say happy birthday and he got me seasons 3 and 4 of Supernatural on DVD.  I got the first two seasons (again) on Thanksgiving night.  Then after finally going to bed after crying a lot, I woke up when Brian went to work.  I didn’t do anything all day.  Traci called me and told me all that crazy stuff.  I was nice to Rory only because I wanted to know if he was home (because if he wasn’t, I was going to go through his room and look for things indicating he’s doing heroin, etc).  So I knocked on his door to see if he wanted lunch.  He was nice as could be but I just am disgusted by him.  Anyway, he also told me he bought a gun.  He said he pawned it but wtf.  Why does he need a gun?  I mean I’m not a big gun fan anyway.  I get it-- “guns don’t kill people, people kill people.”  But not everyone is mentally stable enough for a gun.  Exhibit A, Rory.  But yea, so anyway.  Back to my day… I basically just relaxed in my room watching tv, took a shower/bath and got purrrrty haha.  I made my video, then talked to my mom.  By then, Brian was home.  Oh yea, and that morning, I also told Erin goodbye.  You know something?  She always plays a victim.  I told her one day that part of the reason why I let go of Erica was that when being friends with someone becomes a chore, you let that person go.  That’s how I ended up feeling about Erin.  She says “you let me go a long time ago, you and I both know that.”  Brian agrees with her.  I do and I don’t.  I held on for a long time by always trying to be there for her.  I think she thinks I let go because I wasn’t avoiding issues anymore and I choose Brian over her when it came to hanging out at times.  Idk what she meant honestly--but I had no reason to argue with her or discuss it.  We didn’t even get in a big stupid fight over anything.  I’m just done--and she needs to grow up and be more positive.  I’d say freeing myself of her was one of my favorite parts of the day.  So, Jess came over with a huge bag of stuff.  She got me smelly goods hair stuff, bath salts and bubble bath, etc etc.  Well you’ll see on my video.  My dad got me a new fabulous camera. I LOVE IT.  It’s amazing.  We went to Longhorn for dinner and my server was awesome.  Very cute, lmao.  Melissa joined us towards the end just before we left and then she went with me to Target to buy job hunting clothes with a gift card I got from my Grandma and Aunt Carole.  Then she, Brian, and myself had drinks at Skeeters.  It was a very nice night.  Melissa got me the same kinds of stuff that Jessica did.  Lmao. Again, you’ll see my video!  So, then Friday night was my birthday party.  The cake was beautiful--Betty Boop.  And I had balloons, party favors and flowers--all from Jess.  She spoiled me--just like you!  I got pretty toasted that night lmao.  I guess that pretty much covers the birthday stuff.  You’re definitely going to see pictures in part 2 of the NB.  I’m going to start that off with holiday photos.  It will include:
--Halloween
--Thanksgiving
--My birthday (not that that’s a holiday, but still)
--New Years
--Valentine’s Day
--St Patty’s Day (if I still have the nb).

I may bypass those though.  I guess we’ll see!  The fun and yet frustrating part of doing a NB is the figuring out how to put things together.  I think I am going to just do up to New Years as far as holidays go.  Not because I won’t be able to figure it out but because I think I’ll save that for my next nb which I’m already thinking of ideas for.  Woo hoo!  So, I just made two videos and they are posting to our channel right now.  I thought it would be cool to show off birthday stuff.  It was long so I did it in two videos.  Dumb ol’ Youtube--that we love so much lmao--was telling me it was too long so I had to remake it and split it in two.  Oh well, I hope you enjoy them.  I am a little worried about Brody.  He’s outside by himself on the front porch and he won’t talk to me.  I know I’ve said a lot of crummy things about him in here but I really do love him.  I tried to let him know I’m here for him and that I’m not his mom or dad but I do love him.  I tried to see if it was about us not being here for Christmas (I’ll explain) or because he can’t stay here tonight or something else entirely.  He won’t talk to me though.  I won’t force him to either but I’m failing at trying to not be upset.  I tried to just not care ‘cause I know kids are kids but he will barely talk to me and is very sulky.  I was going to get food with him and Brian but now I may just stay home.
Ok, I didn’t stay home.  I’m still here at Brian’s and Brody is still in a cranky mood.  Brian made me feel better about it though so I’m just going to move on.
So yea, Brian and i are talking about going to Universal Studios for Christmas.  My dad might go to Kimberlee’s which I guess I’m not invited to.  It wasn’t said in those words but that’s the feeling I got.  So whatever.  What pisses me off is that we will all be divided now and I’m worried about my mom.  The only problem with us going to Universal on--er for--Christmas is that we’d have to leave Christmas Eve so we could get a hotel and be at the park before the doors open.  Brian says if you don’t there that early, you can’t get in the park because it’s that busy.  I don’t know how true that is though.  The reason all this is a problem is because Brian’s family does Christmas on Christmas Eve when we’d leave and he thinks his mom will have a major meltdown.  *I* think he should talk to her now about it and maybe do Christmas Eve early before we leave with his family.  Brian’s just set in his “possible problems” ways which means we don’t decide until last minute and then it will be a pain in the ass.  So who knows if we’ll go or not.  We’d only need $$ for:
--a ticket for Brody
--hotel
--food

I mean I feel like it’s doable if I somehow make $$ to help.  Unfortunately, there’s still phone bill to pay still.  Plus his storage in Indiana.  Plus insurance and gas.  Also, gifts for:
--you
--Riley
--Reegan
--Winter
--Gabby
--Brody
Everyone else gets coupons.  Lol so yea.  I guess “We’ll see” is the theme in the NB tonight.  Haha.  This week went by super fast.  I can’t believe it’s already Sunday which means Dexter.  I’m sad there’s only 3 episodes--including tonight (well 2 now, it’s over)--left!  Then I have to wait until September 2013 for the 8th and final season.  Boooooo!  Brian’s got me watching Son’s of Anarchy from the beginning now.  Then we’ll watch Supernatural and 7th Heaven, Six Feet Under, Walking Dead, catch up on Breaking Bad, Flash Forward, Law and Order:SVU, Full House--okay I’m ahead of myself lol.  But yea I’m excited about it.  I’ve never been this interested in TV!  Besides all my nbs and video making and boring ole TV this week, I will be making your letters box as well as my favorite things box.  I can’t wait to start that and open it up next year on Dec 31st, 2013.  I wonder if I can make videos of 365 of my favorite things hmmmm.  Probably not but maybe I’ll figure that out.  I can’t wait until you get this whole thing because you’re going to laugh about all this stuff I’m thinking about and how it actually turns out.  I feel so good about this nb. I love it so much.  Pretty soon I will be done with it and send it off.  Well ok not soon soon but sooner than the last one.  Lmao.
I can’t believe I’m on YouTube idol.  I hope I don’t get eliminated at all--but especially soon.  Round 1 is Country Week and the song I chose is Any Man of Mine by Shania Twain.  I hope I can do iiiiiiiiiit!  Ugh ok so I want to get to a certain page tonight but I keep getting texts!  Lmao you’re all driving me nuts!  Just like that pen was.  Waaaaaah I loved that pen and it ran out of ink.  I think this one is out the door too.  Boo.  Whoa my goodness!  I forgot to tell you some craziness about my birthday party.  Ok, so I have this friend Danielle who was not going to come to my party, then she was, then she wasn’t, then she was.  Yea.  Annoying. All over some dumb boys (I will tell you the story).  Anyway finally she tells me she’s bringing her friend Stephanie so they get there and I think hmmm I wonder if that’s the Stephanie that dated Robbie (another story).  So later, she’s telling me I look familiar so I muster up the courage and ask her, “did you date Robbie Hill?”  And babam! That was her.  Such a small world, you know?  I can’t wait to tell you all these stories tomorrow.  I was going to try to get to page 150 but I think I just need to stop for the night.  It’s 1:07am and I need to go watch Dexter. So here’s my agenda for tomorrow:
--watch episodes 2 and 3 of Sons of Anarchy snuggled up to my man
--make my boxes maybe
--practice Any Man of Mine
--write in here
--work on my stories
--”today I’m thankful for”
--25 days of Christmas
--Read
--take pictures
It sounds busy but very relaxing too.  Ugh ok, I thought Brian was done war cracking but I guess not so I’ll just keep writing.  He’s such a nerd lol.
I’m sorry you had Erin Facebook unfriend you.  I’m not sure why she friended you to begin with but how rude of her to unfriend you just because of me.  I was nice about ending our friendship which sounds strange but I could have been like, “I think you’re a self absorbed, selfish, self victimized, childish bitch and I want nothing to do with you anymore."  Which is all true, and would’ve resulted in a name calling fight with her and would have rattled me for days.  Instead, I told her I loved her and wished her the best and was letting her go.  Still true.  I don’t hate her or with her harm, but maybe she’s just getting rid of everything Chelsea.  And that includes you.  I know you aren’t heartbroken over it but still.  It does make me wonder what her agenda was with you all along though.  The good news is, she’s out of our life.  I’m sure I’ll run into her at karaoke though.  Blegh.  Ok, my boyfriend is finally done warcracking!  Good night!

Lymtl!  Moosh!

<3,
me