1/12/13

1/12/13, 1:03pm
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Good afternoon, beautiful!  I am so sorry to hear how sick you are!  :( I hope you don’t have strep, but that (or mono) is what it sounds like and I would rather it be strep because mono can linger for months!  I don’t understand why your health is so bad so often.  My immune system is bad too but your health just overall worries me, Rita.  Anyway, sorry I didn’t return last night.  By the time I was done getting ready, I tried to make more channel videos and people kept walking in.  Brian and I worked from like 7:30 to 11:30pm.  It was really exhausting and I have no idea how real singers do it.  Lol.  I should say celebrities, not real singers.  I am a real singer lol.  So after we finally did all that, I took another shower to wash “beast” makeup off and we went to Wendy’s for dinner.  :/ yea.  I had a homestyle chicken sandwich and fries.  I was so hungry.  Then, we went to Skeeters because Brian just had to have a few beers.  I feel bad because he came straight from work (well, actually, he did stop to pick brody up who decided to just stay at gma’s) and we immediately went to work on my video.  I am impressed with it but very fearful that it will somehow get me disqualified, or eliminated.  I don’t know if this fear is valid, or just my usual worrying.  Still, I know it will be ok if I am eliminated.  Meh, but I don’t want to be!  I feel like redoing the whole thing in the angela Lansbury version and seeing which I like best.  I might do that.  I have access, I mean I could figure it out, right?  Yikes.  So I need to stop worrying about it for now and concentrate on this and reading.  Then we’ll see.  I did all the harmonizing parts myself and I am proud of that but still very fearful.  UUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!  I know you and Brian won’t be disappointed in me if I’m eliminated, and that you’ll be proud of me for even doing this.  It’s just I don’t want to be eliminated so soon.  I don’t HAVE to win, but yea it would be nice.  If I make it to top 5/2 I’ll be happy, but if I’m eliminated this soon… *shakes head*.  Ok, ok, I really have to stop thinking about this.
I am finally kind of hungry but the only thing that appeals to me in the slightest is coney dog and I am grill proof if that makes sense.
Oh, not only did Barb get a job so soon, guess who else got a job?  Yea, Ryan fucking Mac now works at Steinmart making $9 an hour.  If they’ll hire him maybe I have a shot.  I don’t want to step on toes but I need a job, too.  I mean, I don’t necessarily want to work with him but a job is a job!  That shit also said last night, “You got a little acne on your face.”  I should have said, “So?  You have a lot.”  But no I just explained that I was drinking primarily water and all that bad stuff is coming out.  You know, I am just kind of sick of Skeeters and bars in general.  Drunk people are just rude.  I mean, suddenly they say things because their filter is distorted by alcohol and I should be ok with that?  No.  Teddy is like, in his 80s and says he ran into Erica.  I was like, Ok and?  I’m not friends with her anymore.  And then he tells me she lost some weight, then gently touches a fist to my stomach and says “you on the other hand have gained some.”  (I know I’ve said all this before, I’m sorry.)
First of all, get your hands off me.  Second, rude much?  FUCK YOU.  I mean, he’s pretty round himself.  Asshole.  And he knows I’m pissed at him because I haven’t spoken to him since, and that was weeks ago.  So hahahaha bastard.
Alright, it’s video time.  For our channel, your reviews, and a different version of my youtube idol video.  Lol.

Love you, more later!