12:57am
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Rita
Rita
Bo Bita
Fanana fana fo Fita
Fee Fi mo Mita
Riiiiiiita!!!!
Haha, yup--embracing my inner nerd! So, here I am at the Hathhorn household, trying to get my video together to upload for YouTube Idol, plus the ones from our channel. Ugh, I mean for. While Brian is fucking with that for the next 10 hours, I will write in here. I forgot to write earlier about my dream. Ugh so freaking strange so I don’t even remember the order these went. At one point, I mentioned Sherry Guthrie (an old friend of mine) and Brian told me he had dated her a long time ago. I was going to ask him if this was true and he was waking me up (in real life) but he kissed me goodbye. I decided it wasn’t possible, and I went back to sleep. In this dream, a bunch of people (like a whole community) and myself all live in a Walmartlike store and we only really could interact at night so that people couldn’t see us and know we were there. Some of us had been killed and were ghosts. Others weren’t (?) and kind of hid/waited to be killed. either way, it was kind of spooky. It started to look like a house because there was kitchen where someone was killed (it was like an "in the background" type of thing) with an axe. I saw blood squirting out. Then in one room, a mom was was sitting behind a little girl doing her hair. There was another girl close to me and the lady said there was a room for her and a room for me. I found my room--which was huge and beautiful. It had hardwood floors, a queen/king sized bed with white bedding and black pillows. There was a white entertainment center off to the right in a corner. Then, we found the girl’s room. It was small and had an old dirty looking mattress up against the wall. I don’t know if the woman and her daughter or the girl were dead yet, but I wasn’t. In another dream, I was in a car with my dad. He was in the driver’s seat, and I was in the backseat. We pulled up into the driveway (the driveway was made of gravel and pebbles like sand colored) and there was a gate…. (ugh gotta go)
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12:00pm
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(con’t from last night) So these animals get out of the car and my dad kinda freaks and has the gate closed, but then this neighbor walks into our yard through open space and I’m like WTF how is that gate effective then? Then I was with some guy in an abandoned part of a hospital and he said he had to turn the heat off, so he goes into this room with a mattress bed like, and turns off the heater. And then, I woke up.
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Sorry I didn’t finish last night. Brian’s parents came home and there was a nasty fight. So I cut things short. Sorry I didn’t finish last night. Brian’s parents came home and there was a nasty fight. So I cut things short. I knew they were fighting because when they pulled up and got out, I heard them and then heard her slap him (Barb and Tom). Then she came in and tripped and fell. She says she broke her wrist but she was moving it fine and wouldn’t let me ice it. So whatever. I mean, she was drunk beyond measure of course. This is what I’m marrying into one day. Again. Luckily Brian will tell his mother what he thinks and doesn’t support her habits. I can tell it bothers him that she is this way. He says she didn’t used to be this way and after Greg was born (21 years, almost 22) she just changed completely. All she does is sit by the computer playing games and drinking. I get along with her pretty well but I know it won’t always be that way. She has no concept of money and no matter what you say, she hears something else, so Brian never wants me to tell her anything. I think I’ve learned my lesson a few times. Lol. Anyway, she was crying and they were screaming at each other and he finally told her she was crazy. And it got worse. She went in the kitchen and started throwing everything and that’s when I told Brian (who I’d told a few times before it got bad) and was now in the bedroom with his dad talking. I came in and said, “Honey, she’s throwing things now and I love you all but I want to go home.” So, we got Brody and left. His mom started telling us we better not leave, and please don’t, but he was like, “Mom, I don’t want my kid around this, Chelsea is uncomfortable, and we’re leaving.” She said “God forbid” and that’s when I shut the door and got Brody into the car so I don’t know what she said. I’m just glad I’m home. We were supposed to spend the night there but yea. I don’t know when I will get your videos and my channel videos together now. I want my own laptop and internet so I don’t have to rely on Brian! I WANT MY OWN TAX REFUND NOW! Ugh, I’m actually worried that Big Lots hasn’t sent me my income forms yet. If they think they’re taking that money from me, it’s going to court. I don’t owe them $1,000 or even $3,000. I don’t owe those assholes a dime. I quit because I didn’t do anything wrong, I signed that paper out of fear. I’m pissed I ever signed anything. Ugh PLEASE don’t take my laptop money. I will cry. Plllllllleeeeeeeaaaaasssssssseeeeeeeee.
So now I need to comment on your “friend” Steve. We talked about this in text already but I’m going to write about it here as well. I don’t know why you are holding onto this guy and letting him be this way to you. This is not like you. You allow men to do the same thing to you that you say I allow them to do to me! I know you and this guy have a “history” but to me, he’s just talking to you when it’s convenient for him. What kind of friend abandons you for 4 months just because they have a girlfriend/boyfriend and then lies about it? This is what Matt did to you (well except the lying) but you’ll make an exception for THIS guy because you maybe one day will be together. I don’t think he even deserves to look your way much less get the chance to be with you after treating you like a ragdoll (what, you can only take her off the shelf when there’s no other female in the picture?) I’m just saying--don’t settle. Brian can be a real asshole but I can’t imagine life anymore without him. He makes me happier than ever, and yea we fight but he gives me so much love and I didn’t settle for him. One day I just realized he was it.
Anyway I need a nap. Love you!
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6:09pm
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So I got up around 3:30 (it was like half an hour nap) and Brian was on a break from work so we watched Boy Meets World (almost season 3 time). Then round 7 came out for YouTube idol. I am not making any decisions until I know who is eliminated, but round 7 is rock week and we can choose between Aerosmith, Bon Jovi, Queen, or Motley Crue. Brian’s favorite band (besides Children of Bodom and Danzig and Gwar) is Motley Crue. So it would be cool to do something like that, but I am hoping to do Queen “Somebody To Love." We’ll see, though. By the time I decide/know if I’m eliminated or not, that may be taken. So I will just keep you posted on everything. They thought my song was “rushed” but it’s a rushed song anyway imo. I didn’t get to post my Celine/Peabo version because Brian had run into editing issues then that big old fight happened so we just used my Angela version. I’m glad you liked it! I like it too and I don’t see how it’s rushed but maybe I’m just missing what others are seeing… er hearing. Lol. I hope I’m not eliminated but if I am, there is also weekly challenges I can do until next season. haha so I’m ok. Plus I can do my own stuff and take requests… but I haven’t been eliminated (yet) so we’ll be positive.
In other news, (now that I’m back from a very frustrating venture in ordering food), Brian tells me that his mom was throwing shit last night (which I knew) and not only did some of it end up in the swimming pool, but she destroyed the computer as well. The shitty thing is, she’s just going to expect Tom to spend $ to fix it and I hope he tells her no. But then if he does, she’s just going to make everyone’s life miserable. And if I don’t go back over there it will cause problems so I’m going to just have to go back. But I told Brian I think this is definitely a push we need to get out before the next school year so looks like we’ll be moving to Indiana come summer time. But we’ll see. I’m thinking early August would be best if not June. I don’t really want to go in July because Brian’s birthday is the 9th and I just want him to relax. Plus he shares his b’day with his sister and I kind of want to do something with her this time too. But I also would need to get enough time to pack all my stuff I want to take. I’d be leaving all the bedding except my two pillows and my blanket. I’d be leaving the tv/movie stand, and the closet organizer, and taking everything else. I may ship stuff to you if you want it (dreamcatcher, Chinese symbols, etc). The good news is that Brian has friends w/ landlord families so it may be easy for us to get a place. Ooooh! Not gonna lie, I am getting excited. Ok, so, now I can tell you about my ordering ventures lol. My dad saw a commercial for some restaurant doing a $20 for 2 (I reversed that grr it’s 2 for $20) with steak and blue cheese on it. So he was so sure it was Chili’s, so I call Chili’s and this idiot apparently either can’t hear me say “steak with blue cheese” or he just doesn’t know the menu. Ugh. So he just kept saying “we do have 2 for $20 but blue cheese is not a choice.” Ummm. Duh. I finally just said “nevermind” and he laughed at me so I hung up. JERK. So then my dad makes me call Applebees. They don’t have it either so I don’t know what commercial he saw. I did 2 for $20 from Applebees, got steak and asked them to put blue cheese on it. Lol. He didn’t like it. :/. UGGGGGh. Just shoot me.
{about a picture: ready to go out for New Years Eve with Brian. He had to work late and didn’t come home until nearly 11:30pm, so it was a close call lol. I look like I’m reaching for a hug lol. Rita! Come hug me! I know I’m going to really wanna hug from you if you have forgive me for my indiscretion. I am really worried about this. :(}
{pg 62 picture: Danielle and myself. We are at Skeeters. I don’t remember the date but it was in December, I think before New Years after Christmas? So 12/28/12 maybe? I love the picture because I look healthy and the rose is a really nice touch. This is Danielle, the girl who bitches about not having friends and then only calls me to hang out when she has no one else. It’s annoying and I’m done being a last resort, but the picture still looks good. haha.}
{pg 63 picture: So, I love this photo and yes, *I* took it! It’s an effect on my camera called fragmented! And looks really good when doing scenery like this. In this case, I used candle holders that are all tiered and put on the dining room table for Christmas Decor. There are 5 of them in all and as you can see, I don’t put candles in them, I just arrange them to look puuuuurty. It looked better with just the three instead of all five. I really love still life photography. I think I may do more stuff like this when I have my own computer to work on. I am getting more into photography again so yaaay! I hope you liked this one also.}
So that concludes the whole photo thing. I might get more before I finish this and send it off but I wanna see about glasses and drivers license first. I don’t know, we’ll see. I want to take pictures of all my favorite places before I move. That way when I miss it, I can look at the pics and put myself there. I don’t know, maybe that’s a bad idea lmao. Plus I have Facebook pictures to look at… hmmm. So, here’s the Valentines I need to get:
my dad--card and choc covered cherries
Brian--ummmmm…. at a loss
Brody
you
Gabby
Then it’s Brody’s b’day and I think we might try to take him to Universal. Plus, I want to make him an adventure Time cake. He loves the show, and so I think it would be a cool cake to make, I just have to figure out how to do it. Then in March, Brian and I celebrate our 1 year so I need to figure out what to do for him for that. Besides you, he is my favorite person. So he deserve the very, very best from his lady, you know?
Well, Rory is home and I was telling him about Brian’s mom. Brian says she broke the computer and then threw shit in the pool. (I just remembered telling you already. Lol.)
You know, I am logging my diet crap and it’s not even going well. I need to get more serious about this and exercise, too. *sigh* I need to have WILL POWER
No carbs
No sugar
No soda!
Alright, well, I think I’m gonna go take a bath, read, watch Boy Meets World, and snuggle with my honey. LYMTL!
<3
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