11:50pm
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Hey, how’s my Rita? I am in a lot of pain…. again. It was my left arm before, now it’s my right shoulder/neck area. (This could be from how I lay while watching Boy Meets World). All I know is that I desperately need a massage. So, between Melissa, Jessica, and you, I feel like I am going to scream. I am pissed at Melissa (you know why) and Jess (I will explain). I’m not pissed at you so much as I just don’t understand what you are doing with all these loser guys. First of all, WHY would you meet at all with Mike’s brother? I’m not trying to say that Joe (I think you said his brother’s name is Joe) is a bad person just because Mike is. I’m just saying that it almost seems like you are asking for trouble. Don’t put yourself in a position to deal with Mike again. I just think all things involving Mike need to be in your past. I know you’re a grown ass woman and I don’t know this guy, but I’m going off what I’m told and seeing how you’ve been affected. I think it’s weird being in the position for you that always are for me. Joe could be a complete prince but my gut is just like, sour over this. You’re telling me you’re iffy about it too but then--you have good instincts (well you did)... WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS? And then there is Larry. I’m very proud of you for telling him you don’t want to sleep with him anymore. I just don’t think he (or this Steve guy for that matter but I will get to him) deserve your friendship, either. I know you and Larry have been “friends” for a long time (13 years?) and so I get that it’s hard to let go. I’m just thinking a friend doesn’t pull all the Ryan Mac/Robert/every guy I’ve “fallen” for routine and then you just keep giving him chances and he keeps disappointing you. You’ve been disappointed enough. And Steve. Well, wtf Rita. After how he’s hurt you, you’re gonna give him more chances too??!? I love you but where has my sensible Rita gone? In a way, I wonder if you’re thinking:
1) “This is how I felt about you with Ryan Mac” LMAO.
2) “what are you to be talking about friendship when all you’ve done is lie to me.”
Well, you’re right. About both things. I’m sorry x infinity, and I haven’t told you the truth because I think texting it is impersonal. This way sucks too though. I really hope we are going to get past this. So, Jessica. Really, I just am tired of her calling me crying about her life and then making fun of me. Also she likes to tell the story of when I was high with her and Pappy and lost the house I was sitting, she won’t let me tell it and then when she does, she tells me I’m wrong. It’s like, I may have been high but I know what went down (I will tell you the story tomorrow). It sounds petty but it’s like she gets off on making me feel like less of a person. (she made fun of me at the mall for getting excited over a new restaurant). Then she wants a tattoo and whines and bitches the whole time that it hurts and gets mad at me for “acting like it’s nothing.” I finally snapped at her and said, “I’m not saying it doesn’t hurt. Fuck. Just let her finish.” I was so pissed. Don’t call me to bitch about a situation you won’t remove yourself from and treat me like SHIT over it. So yea, I just need to distance myself from her. I think I’m just ready to get the fuck out.
Anyway I am sleepy so LYMTL!
Love always,
Chels
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