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Happy Monday Blues! I have wasted my whole day being bummed out. So I’m going to write in here a bit, write you a letter, and do a video. The lighting in my room is atrocious and there’s nothing good on TV! So, hmmm I’m super distracted at the moment. I may take a hot bath and come back to this cause my back is causing problems.
Ok I’m back. I finally just came downstairs to write at the kitchen table lol. I wish I could just have stayed in my room but that was not happening so oh well.
But yea, I had a bum of a day. Nothing bad really happened but money issues just depress me. I actually think my medicine needs to be fixed again. Part of it is me forgetting to take it. Lately I have been so bad but I promise to you RIGHT NOW to do better! Still, it does need to be looked at and fixed. You know what else needs to be fixed? My handwriting. I want your handwriting. I love your handwriting. Lol. But anyway, my attitude finally got better and now I’m in a good mood. In the meantime, my depression resulted in cancelling my “birthday party.” I feel like I’ll just drive everyone crazy if I say it’s back on lol. I’m beginning to think I’m just nuts. The good news is I feel way better about the Indiana thing. I mean, Brian and I may not even end up going. He says it’s not his first choice and he’s torn on it. He didn’t understand why I was getting all freaked out over it when he’s not even sure he wants to go. You know what? He’s right lol. I knew my fears were realistic and had a good reason, but that I was being crazy. I hope that makes sense. Lol. I think tomorrow will be way better. I will just decide to be happy and have a good day. I will make the video tomorrow too because I’m going to show off my room which will be easier when there’s natural light. Plus Brian will likely be here soonish (whenever he’s done with Warcrack). And tomorrow he works so I’ll have lots of time to do video and other nbs. I really need to look for a job, but I want to relax this week! You know what? Ooooh I’m listening to 80’s love songs on Pandora via my Iphone and Hungry Eyes is on!! I love this song! I hope they play Firehouse, Tesla, Bon Jovi, etc etc. This song makes me swoon. I just want to dance!!! I think on my birthday I will just listen to this station. Who know? That day will be amazing, I swear. I’ll make it that way! Anyway, you know what? (I am so sorry for my blondish ADD moment). My mom sent me $100! Yea! In September she sent me $175 for Cali and said it was for my birthday. Then when Brian and I went to GA to visit, she bought me socks, two pairs of sneakers, and two pairs of jeans. Then she told me that was for my birthday. Then, when she was here, the day my dad got out of the hospital, she took me to get my hair done, a pedicure, and my eyebrows waxed. She said that it was for my birthday. LMAO! Now, in my b-day card she sends me $100. Granted, it’s still for job hunting clothes, but still. She’s probably spent close to if not over $600.00 for me just on my birthday. I feel like a simple thank you isn’t enough. Very nice. Plus I know what I’m getting from her for Christmas so tack on another $50 bucks or so. (either the Vice Palette or the Naked Palette). I may try and get her a sweet thank you card. Who knows! Man, I was hoping to be further on this NB before Brian got home. Lol, nope. So I told him I want to get to page 117 then I’ll go upstairs. I moved my “night stand” to make a desk for this NB, from his side. It didn’t work out so I came down here. Anyway, he had to move it lol. WHoops. Unbeknownst to him, I may shoot for page 120. Haha. He’ll be alright up there without me for a few. I may even turn my pandora back on and listen to some looooove songs. I need to also remind my dad to leave me three stamps for tomorrow so I can snail mail you, my aunt Janice, and my grandma. I miss my grandma. It makes me sad that she moved to Texas. Now, she hasn’t been diagnosed (that I know of) but, I think she has Alzheimers because she’s very difficult to talk to because she’s so forgetful and confused. I wish my grandpa was still around for her. He really was my best friend when I was little. Him and my daddy. Ok, I keep getting texts and my phone vibrating is drinking me nuts. So much for page 120! Tomorrow I’m fixing it so my phone won’t vibrate while I do nbs!
LYMTL!
Moosh!
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