12:24pm
hey Chels!
Holy hell I wrote a lot last night. Well just yesterday in general. And today I have just as much to write. I am watching Showgirls… omg sooo bad on the acting. It’s like they wanted the main character to act like she was withdrawling from meth or something.
Okay so… where was I in my story? Right so I was on my way to a client’s house in Batavia. I had to call 911 for her the week before because when I got there she couldn’t breathe. I was going to take her to the ER myself but she couldn’t breathe enough to get out the door herself. I had no idea if she would be there or not. When I got there the lady at the front wouldn’t let me go up to see her cuz she claimed she didn’t know who i was. I had to fill something out and was sent home.
The problem with my old job was that if someone was sick or in the hospital nobody bothered to tell me. And some of these people lived like 45-60 minutes away. The lady who hired me was really cool but I guess she left and this other lady took over. For some reason she really hated me. She called me when i was in the hospital visiting Kendra who was in labor. She yelled at me for taking so many vacations even though I always made sure the clients were taken care of before I left and I never took more than a weekend.
I had asked for some time off so I could watch my dad while Kendra was in the hospital and I guess I didn’t ask right or something. We got into a huge fight and I got fired but at that point I didn’t care.
So anywho… you know what’s funny? I can remember where I was every time in the past couple years when we were talking and when we weren’t. I remember when you were telling me about Grant. It was like… January ‘09 and it was dark outside. i wanted to have dinner with my parents so my mom drove and I sat in the back. It was dark outside but the sky was pink. There was snow in piles in the parking lot. I don’t remember why we started talking again but I got scared and ran away… again. Then then was the time you found out about Ryan. I had my new phone (I had gotten it in February). After the drama when you told your friend and she texted Ryan asking if he and I were really going out, we stayed talking for a while. I was at a horse jumping competition in July when I started getting scared again. Oh and in May (when my cousin was sick) I talked to you as a distraction. I didn’t tell you mainly because of Brian but also because I just didn’t want to tell you. So I turned all the focus on you so it would distract me from what was really going on in my life. I actually blew my cover from when I was pretending to be someone else when I found out her cancer was back and you pissed me off in PTG. I think I was mad because I always wanted to be a host but no one had ever let me, there was some protocol to follow. I go in there and you were hosting because Emily said it was okay. I know I wouldn’t have cared either way if I didn’t have so much going on.
The main reason why I’m telling you this now is because you are going through exactly what I went through a year and a half ago. As time went on I figure I’d tell you if the subject came up but it never did. I was going to tell you last night on the phone but I didn’t because 1) talking about your friend was upsetting me enough, and 2) I didn’t want to start crying because of my loss and turn things around on me when you are going through something completely awful.
Anywho… I keep getting sidetracked and delving into separate stories. Lol sorry. I bet you are still wondering what the heck happened with Geoff and me (as I stated several pages back but never got around to sharing with you). ugh, my stomach is growling something fierce and I actually have stuff to do today. I am taking my dog (and quite possibly my dad) to our cousin’s house today to carve up some pumpkins. I doubt he’s gonna go with me but I’m gonna try anyway. I also have to go to the library to drop stuff off and drop a painting off at my mom’s friend’s old house and I do not want to go. I am going to watch the rest of the movie (because it finally got interesting) and then get everything done. Then came back later and finish up the story. Gotta love a cliffhanger!
<3,
me
1:44pm
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