November 9th, 2007

November 9th, 2007
1am

Hey sweetheart,
Wow tonight was really shitty.  But, alas, life does go on.  Damn, lol.  Anywho--tomorrow I HAVE to make sure I have enough $$ in the bank to pay my car and then go to the library and drop off my VERY overdue books.  Ugh I can't believe Nick is here.  I am listening to him babble on about nothing in particular.  Dude I just saw this Twilight zone episode where the guy had 4 wishes.  If I had a wish I'd wish that Nick would leave.  He just told Brian the next time he has a problem to say something because what I said  "came from left field."  But Brian is defending me.  Haha damn straight.  Brian isn't really helping though.  He says one thing to us and one thing to him.  I wish Brian could just say how he really feels.  Nick's like, "If my girlfriend told you that you weren't supposed to be here, what would you do?"  Oh please.  Carla would never say that because unlike Nick, Brian is respectful and doesn't ruin everyone's shit.  And Brian did hear Nick knocking on the door, he just didn't want to answer the door.  I dunno what the fucking problem is.  If Brian has a problem with Nick he should just say so.  But I guess he figures what's the point because he's not going to listen anyways.  I'll ask
him about it maybe tomorrow.  I wanna get some pics developed!  I think I'll do that tomorrow, or it might have to wait until next week.  I don't WANT to wait, but I guess it's not the end of the world. Oh, happy anniversary, btw!  I'm sure you don't even think of it as an anniversary cuz you're married and that anniversary is in June, but if you hadn't of had this one, you never would have had the other.

So, it's time for me to bid you adu.  And I love you.

<3,
me

1:44am
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Nov 9th, 2007
12:29pm

Alright.  The next chapter starts your birthday present.  I was going to close off the pages, but I will be writing between the pages.  I missed one page so I had to write the instructions on another piece of paper for you.  But if I get some extra time I'll add some more surprises there for you.  Wow I can't believe I'm almost at 100.  Damn. Anywho, before I continue with your dream, I want to write about the weird one I had.  Well, before I went to sleep I said to myself that I wanted to visit you in my dream and I wanted to go to the beach.  Even though my ring finger was still irritated (I've had to take off both of my rings cuz my skin is really dry) I put my moonstone on and I put my engagement ring on the other finger and then I went to sleep.
Well, I had a very different dream instead.  I dreamed that Lisa called me and invited me over to her house for lunch.  So I went over to her house (which was in a forest preserve) and Mike was there.  Lisa and I talked and she was really nice to me. Mike kept trying to put his arm around me and holding my hand but I kept telling him to stop it.  After a while I got sick of him bugging me.  So he asked me for another chance and I said no and I started running away.  I ran across the field and I realized I forgot my shoes.  I stopped near a restaurant and there was this hole with water in it where people had their cell phones, keys and wallets.  It was rainy out but not dark out.  So it was just overcast.  Anywho, I looked through one of the wallets and then I looked through the window of the place and saw there were people there.  They saw me and one girl gave me a dirty look so I dropped the wallet and ran away.  I found my friend Emily at school and she wanted me to follow her up to the roof but I didn't have any shoes and there was snow on the ground so I borrowed socks from someone.
Weird!
So... I can't wait until our next book, which I'm sure will be coming up shortly.  I bought a small bag with a Christmas theme on it and I think I'm going to make lots of hearts and stars and put them in the bag.  Also I want to get either pink or red wrapping paper to wrap up the front and back covers.  Also, I want to make a list of things I love, and you make the same list, and we'll put the things we love in the notebook among the pages.  And I'll take pics of me and Brian and you take pics of you and David and we'll put those in, too.  Woot woot!  I think when I'm finished with this I'll either get a new one in case you finish this or give you some money so you can get one.  So don't worry about writing cuz I got you covered <3.  Anywho, I'm gonna lay down for a bit and run my errands.

<3,
me

1:37pm
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5:00pm

Hey sweetcheeks!
Well, I went to the library and the post office. I got my mail.  And now I'm sitting on my tush waiting for Brian and Nathan to come home so we can go to the Crystal Garden. I just hope they're still open by the time we get there.  I always hate getting the mail cuz it's always people wanting money from us.  Annoying!  But this time I got my car registration and more birthday stuff.  I also got a care package from my aunt.  :).  Even though my mom gave me $200 I still only send $100 so in case I needed some money I'd have it.  Now I owe them $400.00 so next week I'm sending $200.00.  We'll see how this works out.

Anywho, this is the complete list of things I love:
*the color purple
*Friends
*Degrassi
*Dawson's creek
*vanilla scented perfume
*faires
*Gilmore Girls
*animals (elephants, wolves, turtles, bunnies, and bald eagles are my all-time faves)
*rainbows
*candles
*the ocean
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Okay so since the boys aren't here yet, I'm going to interpret another dream (yay)!
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Dream #2 symbols revealed:
airplane (13)
mall (365)
car (97)
backseat (39)
police (458)
crash and crash test (149)
iPod (321)
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airplane--represents ideals, attitudes, and belief systems.
mall (shopping)--pertains to multiple opportunities available to one.
car--equates to the quality of one's physical condition.  This most often refers to one's personal physiological condition.
backseat--points to one's rightly designated position.  This cautions against trying to always be in the driver's seat.
police--come in dreams as an advisement to self-analyze one's actions; needed introspection.  Police can often be associated with one's Higher self (self-policing).
crash--refers to a destructive aspect; serious consequences. crash test--refers to a need to reinforce one's defenses; may be suggesting that one not be so sensitive and stop taking things personally.
iPod--refers to the ease of changing one's mood. This comes to underscore that one's mood can be altered by oneself through a change in attitude or focusing on the brighter side or one's blessings.
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This is a very introspective dream.  It's focusing on your opportunities that are coming to you, your changing body (being healthier and eating more healthy food) and your ability to focus on happier things.  You have been trying to make new rules for yourself to live by; maybe your dream is just trying to reinforce those rules, making sure they are realistic so you can reach your goals in life.
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Dream 3 symbols revealed:
house (page 305)
long hair (355)
ponytail (459)
crying (154)
hot tub (304)
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House--stands for the mind.  See specific types for additional information. (this I got from a website called "jelly bean dream dictonary").
*house*
To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self.  Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche.  In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity.  If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system.

To dream that you are cleaning your house, signifies your need to clear out your thoughts and getting rid of old ways.  You are seeking self-improvement.If you live with others in your waking life, but dream that you are living alone, suggests that you need to take new steps towards independence.  You need to accept responsibilities and be more self-reliant.

To see an old, run-down house in your dream, represents your old beliefs, attitudes and how you used to think or feel.  A situation in your current life may be bringing about those same old attitudes and feelings.  Alternatively, the old house may symbolize your need to update your mode of thinking.

To see a new house in your dream indicates that you are entering into a new phase or new area in your life.

To dream that your house is broken into suggests that you are feeling violated.  It may refer to a particular relationship or current situation in your life.

Alternatively, it indicated that some unconscious material is attempting to make itself known.  There are some aspects of yourself that you have denied.

To dream of a haunted house signifies unfinished emotional business, related to your childhood family, dead relatives, or repressed memories and feelings.To dream that a house disappeared indicated that you are not feeling grounded.  You feel uprooted by a particular circumstance or relationship in your life. long hair--illustrates analytical though, mental exploration; complex contemplation.ponytail--reflects an accepting attitude; an ability to rebound.crying--pertains to the grief or regret or remorse. hot tub--signifies a need to ease tension.
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I think this dream is about your accepting a new phase in your life.  You are regretful of certain things you've done (or didn't do) and you are ready to be with David in this new phase in your life.  You're also exploring new areas of yourself, exploring new ideas and new areas of yourself.  I say it's a very positive dream.
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9:00pm

Okay well I am not doing that anymore.  At least not tonight.  I really want to stop writing soon to give you a chance to write.  But I think that this is what I'm gonna do.  I'm gonna write however much I'm gonna write. And for your b'day I'm going to give you this notebook, our next notebook, the dream dictionary, and what I got you for your b'day.  And however much I'm writing in here. I will number the pages so you will get the chance to write at least as much as I have (if you want to).  Alright I have been waiting and waiting for Brian to come here with food and I can't wait any longer.  So I shall work on your present for a bit.

<3,
me

9:07pm