November 10th, 2007

November 10th, 2007
nearly 3am

Man I am so pissed off.  But mainly just hurt.  Brian and Nathan FINALLY got home and I asked what happened and all Brian said was that he didn't have to explain where he was.  Can you believe that?  Here I am fucking flipping out of my mind and that's all he has to say for himself.  I know he wasn't doing anything bad but he was acting like I was accusing him.  And he's just sitting there telling me all these excuses.  He could have just said he lost track of the time but nooooo.  He's really acting like a jerk right now.  I understand he's tired and stressed out but I am too.  I have to get up tomorrow and massage 4 people in a row without a break.  And I'm not even getting paid for it. And he's sitting on the couch fucking acting like I do this all the time. If he tells me he's going out, fine whatever. But at least think about what time it is and at least call me to tell me you're okay.  Don't fucking tell me you don't know why all this shit happened.  That's why I got pissed and hung up.  Cuz he wasn't acting like him.  I know he's pissed off about having to wake up early but don't fucking take it out on me.  How would he like it if I was out for way longer than I said I would be and made no effort to call him and then just acted like it wasn't a big fucking deal?  Like "oh my bad... ::insert really lame excuse here::".  He wasn't even gonna talk to me until after he got off work.  I know we'll make up or whatever but it was his attitude more than anything that pissed me off.  He just acted like I was a piece of shit or something.  I wasn't even accusing him of doing anything.  He could have told me he participated in an orgy and I wouldn't have cared.  But noooooo. At least call and tell me you're okay. Gosh what a fucking asshole.  I was just so taken aback by his whole attitude towards me. He made it seem like it wasn't a big deal that he said one thing and didn't come home.  The more I tried not to get pissed off the more pissed off I became.  He needs to understand was all I wanted to know was why it took him so long to call me and what the heck was going on.  I felt like something was wrong that's why I kept calling.  But damn at least be nice about it.  I feel a lil better now.  I'm gonna try to calm down and go to sleep.

Love,
Rita

After my bedtime