2pm
Man! I still feel funny. Like, I'm just floating along on air all from that xanax.
PINK! Ok, so I got some stuff for my own personal touch to the notebook, but I think I'm going to use the bulk of it for our love notebook. I can't believe that we're almost on volume 3. I mean we'll be on that before the first of the new year. That's the best. You know, I am really feeling like I'm in a completely different world right now. Like, I'm at work and so far I did $65.00 but I'm thinking there will be more. I did all my organizing/cleaning already so I'm only going to stop writing for the customers, short breaks, and of course if a manager comes around. Man I can't believe it's already almost 2:30. Time flies. So, I'm going to actually start reading now. Lol. I read some and wanted to add some of my thoughts. :). First of all you couldn't be more right. When we first met, we were great friends. And I think that all the bs we put each other through was our personal test because what friendship is good and strong without tumultuous times? None I tell you. So you know, we know so much more about each other and because of that we understand each other. We know what buttons can and cannot be pushed, and when they HAVE to be pushed, and when the right time is. I think that you knowing me now, knowing me before (well of what you knew online) and knowing "the me" in Ohio, you may be able to understand me more. God that made no sense. I'm just saying that if I ever went back to Ohio and everything, you could probably help me more than you were able to then. As far as reminding me of who I truly am and bringing her back. Lol. *cheers* to our being and our friendship*. So, wow 118 pages you wrote and I have so many things already I felt sparked something inside me. I know, I've said that 3 times now lol. I'm still floating from my xanax last night though. I'm glad I only took 1/2 of it because a whole one. Phew. Plus I drank smirnoff (two) when I took it so yea. I really don't want you to think less of me for it though. I mean I just felt like after the week I had, and the fact that I was having panic attacks in Walmart last night, that a good xanax and a couple drinks would calm me down. I will probably do it again tonight though. Lynne and Mike are at my place and they stayed the night. Lynne cleaned for me and cooked. It was so great. You know? Tomorrow I'll probably just totally relax. It was either the stones you got me or the xanax but for the last two nights I couldn't remember my dreams. So, that's good. God, I have so many things running through my mind. I think I'm gonna take a 15 minute break. Love you!
<3,
Chelsea
My personal table of contents:
*to remind me of stuff to comment on from you*
pg 5: naive feelings etc.
pgs 5-7: Mike's background
pg 10: neighborhood "scary legend"
pgs 10-12: spirits
pg 13: topic answers
pg 17: rich man giving you $
pgs 18-19: papoooyah
pgs 20-21: Nathan dream
pgs 21-24: spiritual intuitions
pg 24: animal shelter
pg 40: Earnest
pgs 55-58: Mike/Lisa/death
5:00pm
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I made two fucking sales all day. This job is shit. They want me to make $780.00 in sales in 3 hours? What a fucking joke. Oh wait, I worked 6 hours. Duh.
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