12:17am
Good, I finally found out why Steve Wilkos called you. Lol. Lynne thought it was a good idea you called. She wants Steve to rip Sara up one side and down the other. With my luck it won't happen that way though. I can't shake the feeling that something is not right though. My phone conversation with Winter just wasn't normal.
So, it's officially the twelfth. So today is Traci's birthday. I have a lot to do tomorrow.
1) wake up, go to the clubhouse
2) call att and try to get service
3) send out bills (paid)
4) try calling nurse again (mri)
5) hang out with Amanda
6) work on the notebook
7) send Angela her letter.
8) call Traci happy b'day
I doubt Amanda and I will hang out even though she said "for real we will" lol. I'm used to it.
It's hot! Ahhh!
So, Amanda was telling me that her and Brian are back together and how much better because he stopped drinking. He sends her gifts and they're moving in together! Cool I guess lol.
Finally my gums aren't hurting too bad right now. Knock on wood.
I can't believe none of my managers at Dillard's have bothered to call me and ask how I am. Bitches. Thanks for caring assholes. No, I'm not surprised persay, I just think it's rude of them. KISS MY GRITS BITCHES!
Well, I think I'll color you 1 more picture tonight, read a little, and go to sleep. So, night babe! Love you.
Love always,
Chelsea
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Hey baby,
this project is for both of us. I ask you questions Valentine's related, and I answer them. When you get the notebook, you answer them then! I hope you enjoy.
Tell me about your favorite Valentine's day...
My favorite Valentine's Day was in 2006 when David proposed to me. I wanted a dog. So, one day, David was picking me up from work and Winter was in the car. She was smiling and told me there was a surprise for me at home.
When I got home, they brought me into the kitchen. There on the dishwasher, was a cake box in the shape of a dog no less. The top said, "Will you be my wife?" The dog had a heart collar, which I was told to pull. Attached was my engagement ring. Of course the answer was yes.
Tell me about your favorite Valentine's candy and why...
My favorite Valentine's candy is the sweetheart candies with the little messages. They make me smile. I think they're a very encouraging idea for people! It always made me feel very special.
Write about a sad valentine's day!
I was "dating" this guy named Gunner. We were both in 6th grade and we hadn't actually met in person. We just talked by phone every day. Anyway, for Valentine's day he sent me chocolates, flowers, and a very gushy card. It freaked me out, so I dumped him. I STILL Feel guilty and regret it. Lol.
Tell me a funny Valentine's story...
One year, I received a big box of chocolates from the internet boyfriend, Sach. (he lived in California). Anyway, I ate the whole box that day and made myself really sick!
Tell me an embarrassing Valentine's Day story....
My school had those cheesy candygrams/flower message thingies. I liked this boy in one of my classes. His name was Sean Strife. I sent him one saying I liked him. He was nice, but didn't return my feelings. To make matters worse, I was the only one in the class without a candy gram/flower. So I was really embarrassed and everyone (except Sean) made fun of me...
Did your family have any special Valentine's Day traditions?
We never had a specific tradition but my mom always had something special to give my brother and I. I usually got really cute clothes. Valentine's Day was also Courtney's (childhood friend) birthday and one year, we all went out to Chuck E Cheese for her birthday/Valentine's day. I got a really cute outfit and earrings which I remember were clowns. Lol. I think those were the only clowns I was remotely okay with.
Reveal your true feelings about Valentine's Day...
I am a typical girl. I always thought V-day was about romance, flowers, and candy. So I was usually depressed when I didn't have someone special I could do those things for. When I met David, things changed. Now, not only do I have that, but I realize that v-day is also about showing everyone you love how you feel. Not just your boy/girlfriend or spouse. Also, it should be an everyday thing. Not just on Feb 14th!
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2-12-08
5:17pm
So, I had a really bad dream last night. So, I'm going to write about it, and interpret that and my others. So, I'll be doing a lot of writing. I have a million other things to say/do (in the notebook alone). It's probably better I have the notebook right now. You're busy, busy, busy. So when you get this back, you'll maybe be less busy and you can vent. Lol. Oh, and when I get it back again, (which obviously we'll be on volume 4 by then) and I can tell you about my new job! Ok, I'm getting ahead of myself here. Back to last night's dream. First of all, I was having a dream about a rhino. Rhino was walking in a herd of elephants. They were walking over straw (hay) layed out on the ground. It was weird. Then, I was by a bird cage with a green bird (like my dad's) and he had a coloring book picture of a hippo he was looking at. He kept talking to me, told me his name was DUke, and I had accidentally called him Dick. I know I wanted to know if he liked the hippo picture. Duke is my dad's bird too.
Then a tiger was jumping up in the air, and catching another animal in its mouth. Then I was looking in the mirror and I could see the devil's reflection. This is all I saw though:
{devil horns}
The horns were thicker and longer and the red was darker. But that's it. No face or anything. Anyway, so next thing I know I'm laying in my bed trying to talk but I laughed and sounded like the devil instead. So, in the dream, I'm screaming but no noise is being made. I can't get David to wake up. Suddenly I felt something drop on my head and I really did scream. I was thrashing around, breathing, and David had to wake me up.
The other part of the dream... I was at Dillard's and Estee Lauder disappeared. That whole part of the store was a baby clothing section. Gloria met me and said she worked upstairs now. It was so weird! lol!
I'm watching X-tina again. I love her. I love her soooo much. I decided Candyman is a cute song after all. I don't know why they act drunk before the song though lol. God, she's just amazing/beautiful.
*interpretations*
(I'm doing the other dreams first)
1. Store--shop (retail) constitutues supply or opportunity. The type of shop will be the important element here.
--K so Dillard's could be that, but this dream was more like a grocery store. So...
Grocery store--Represents diet. Recall what was purchased for a better understanding of what this symbol is attempting to convey (nothing was purchased).
2. Outside--signifies an external position or source.
3. cars parked--equates to the quality of one's physical condition. This most often refers to one's personal condition. This most often refers to one's personal physiological system.
4. Paved ground--implies a seperation from one's natural bond with earth and inherant natural ability; a barrier preventing sensitivity.
5. I can't find anything for wet ground. Oh well!
6. kiss--pertains to a show of intention.
7. there was nothing for "upset."
8. yelling--will serve as an individual message for each dreamer. Recall who was doing the shouting and what was said.
9. call--pertains to communication.
10. cell phone--symbolizes preparedness and/or efficiency.
11. house--stands for the mind. See specific types for additional information.
12. Fighting--warns of aggressive opposition.
13. Dark--suggests something that is difficult to perceive, may refer to negativity obscure or enigmatic.
14. sleeping--correlates with unawareness possibly by choice.
15. computer--connotes a need for analyzation or better understanding.
16. nothing for changing times.
17. There's nothing for driving in circles, but circles means--implies completion. May also indicate an endless path, going in circles.
18. There's nothing for a car falling apart.
19. moped denotes the use of energizing thoughts, positive thinking.
This book really didn't tell me shit about the dream. Either of them.
K, other dream:
1. animals--will be associated with personality/character qualities. See specific type.
a. bird reflects personality characteristics. see specific types
I. parrot typifies verbosity.
b. elephant stands for generous and gregarious nature.
c. tiger implies an aggressive nature, emotionally volatile.
d. a birdcage stands for restrained thoughts, fear of extending one's thought process or doing further research. May also apply to emotional aspects.
e. coloring book suggests an opportunity to express one's personal perspective. May indicate and desire to alter or color things according to one's viewpoint. Recall what images were in the book.
I. hippo typifies spiritual generosity, a continual giving nature.
f. hay implies active efforts, worktime.
g. rhino denotes controlled emotions; the utilization of intellect instead of emotionally instinctual reactions, may denote thick-skinned personality.
h. mirror stands for self-perception, a call for self-examination.
I. devil characterizes an individual or life aspect that is extremely negative and personally harmful.
j. silent dream denotes repressed emotions or unvoiced calls for help.
I can't really find anything for evil laughter or being possessed in that way and having something fall on your head.
K. baby clothes--ugh nothing specific.
Pffft. I may let you put it all together. I'm drained and a lot confused. Plus, David pissed me off and apparently he doesn't give a shit. Sometimes, I think a divorce really is the answer. He doesn't ever fucking listen to me. I'm always wrong. I had to tell his mom what was wrong and he still doesn't seem to give a shit. I'm so mad I can't see straight right now and he's making me angrier just being there by the computer.
Ugh.
--more when I can be nice--
<3,
me
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2-12-08
11:37pm
K, I'm better now. Sorry. Don't even worry about what we fought about. Lol. Way too much to write and think about.
So, Amanda and I didn't hang out surprise surprise. She said her doctor appointment was tomorrow so we'd have to postpone until then. She's weird. She told Charlene I only sprained my foot so now I'm expected at training Mon/Tues. Oh well. I called Charlene and she said I can come to training anyway with crutches so that's a plus. Lol. I basically have 2 jobs now. I hope my MRI is either Thurs/Fri or Wed. But not Mon/Tues. Lol. Except I want to go back to Dillard's asap so I can turn in my 2 weeks. Blah. Hmmm so tomorrow I need to:
1) work on notebook
2) hang with Amanda lol
3) call nurse
That's it. On Friday, our internet will be back. At&t wouldn't do it. One person said one thing, another person said another thing. So we just called Direct Path back. I'm not happy about it. We have to pay $400.00 to do it. Assholes. Ugh. My gums! They are so swollen, Rita. I need to buy floss and make them bleed. That's what they tell you to do. It hurts like hell but oh well. I also suspect my wisdom teeth (top) are in. If so, it seems weird to me because it's growing in the far back on top on the sides of my gums like horns. Is that normal? Owwwww. I may have to take a vicoden for it.
Traci pissed me off. After everything my dad is dealing with, she asks him to babysit Riley. WTF, she should have asked me. I mean this is the same day we find out my mom has a fucking tumor on her ovary. Then she has the audacity to get mad when he let Riley take a nap. So Riley stayed up until 2am so Traci didn't get to study. Yet she is going to have another baby. WTF. If you can't handle one now, how will it be with two? Hmm? Then, I find out my dad told all of us not to call mom (which, there was a reason, duh!). So, what does Traci do? She calls my mom right up. Bitch. Why am I the only one who respects people yet I'm the only one who gets treated shitty. It's disgusting.
So, I'm a bad artist. It's my top gums though. Lol. I just thought I should explain? Eh. Damn, I had that scary devil dream that still upsets me. And I just watched the Futurama with robot devil. I hope I don't dream scary again. Lol. I wanna have a good dream!
Dear Lord,
Please keep my mind clear of upsetting dreams. In Jesus' name, Amen.
I'll write more tomorrow. Sleep time.
Love,
Chelsea
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