2-11-08

2-11-08
3:42am

I can't sleep!  It's because around 9pm, David put "Pirates of the Carribean" on and since that movie bores me, I came to my room.  I was freezing so I got under the covers and fell asleep until midnight.  Wah.  So, I'm gonna take a muscle relaxer, a vicoden (yes I am in pain so don't worry) and I'm listening to Shania Twain, write to you until I'm tired.  Lol.
So, being sick is making my gums hurt, and my lips are cracked.  I'm miserable.  Ugh.  Lol.  I figured I'd have nothing to write about being away from work and all lol.  But I have so much going through my head it's not even funny.
First, I rented "Syndey White" w/ Amanda Bynes.  Kind of a spin off of Snow White and the 7 Dwarfs (which I still have yet to see that cartoon!) MAN I'M TIRED OF COUGHING. Nothing is working.  I can't wait until I walk again.  I want to lose weight and change my life.  We should go to Renegades.  I miss that place.  I also miss my internet.  I hate the mail lady.  I'm going to the office tomorrow to complain.
Omg!  I spaced out.  Back to Sydney White.  There was so many actresses I recognized but I donno from where.

--Sarah Paxton looks like a blonde, taller, Alexis Bledel. The similarities are uncanny.
--The girl who played "Dinky" is familiar.
--the guy who played Tyler Prince, Matt Long, is soooooooo hot!  Lol he's from "Ghostrider." He played young Johnny.
--Ashley Drain is in it but I forget what other movies she's in.  Lol.  (and there's a girl from Bring it on 4).
Lol, I love this song by Shania Twain.  "Honey I'm home."  Rita, I fear I am going country.  I'm fantasizing about tight jeans, boots, and cowgirl hats.  Lol.  Why me?  I sing it well, too.

Lol thanx a lot Big Papa and Lynne.
Man, my gums still hurt :( owwwwww.

So, my friend Amy got pink eye from a tester at Dillard's.  I told her to get worker's comp.  Or she needs to call the health department.  Stupid Dillards.

I need to analyze this American Laser center job.
--she said call her when I know about my foot and she'll work something out with me as far as what I'll do until I can walk again
--she said if I can't work/train this week, they will send me to Boston or NY for training
--she faxed my ss card and ID to headquarters
It sounds like I got the job right? RIGHT?  I think so!  The thing is, surprise surprise, I can't get... --sorry ADD--
--Oh, 1 more thing!  She also said they'd find a way for me to get back and forth to work. So.  Awesome.  Lol.

Back to what I was saying.  I can't get Amanda to call me back.  I wanna know if I can put my 2 weeks notice in.  Lol.  STUPID AMANDA!  I called 'n' left her a message.  Nothing.  I called her the next day and she said she was "uhh... busy" and she'd call me right back, but she never did.  I tried calling her 2 times since and it goes straight to voicemail.  So, I don't know.  She's in Georgia on vacay but maybe she forgot her charger.
If I work at this place, I'll be the fattest ugliest chick there. Everyone is tiny and supermodel plastic surgery material.  So I have to have a healed foot by then so I can start exercising.  My God!  If I go to Boston or NY, how will I get around?  OMG I'm freaking OUT.

I know what you're thinking...

CALM THE FUCK DOWN, CHELS!

Ok, I will not talk about it again, until I wake up.  That's if I ever fall asleep!  It's 4:42 now.  1 hr after I started 2 write.  I'm hot, my laptop died (the battery), so, no more Shania, and my Ipod is dead too.  I feel like I'm in hell right now.  This is my hell!  Omg.
--can't sleep
--sick
--can't walk
--hot as hell (lol)
--no cable tv
--no music
--and my gums hurt.

Good God almighty.  Help me!

Lucky for me, I'm beginning to feel sleepy.
Oh, I got 2 bills from my insurance.
1 was for $223 or something unless I send it back, stating I need it.  (?)
2 the people said $15.86 was not collected from my check so I have to pay it.  I'm like no shit it was taken from my check.  I haven't been able to work.  Why should I have to pay it?  If I don't pay within 10 days they will cancel it.

W/e assholes cancel then!

Everything about Dillard's sucks ass.

Damn, if my Ipod won't play why do I still have my earphones on.  Lol.

Oh, my dad's birthday was on Friday so I brought him presents and a cake and you should have seen how happy he was.  We got him 2 knives (nice knives) and a new gree spatula cause all his are getting shitty.  The cake was like chocolate with almonds around it, and chocolate covered strawberries.  Yum.  We got it at Publix and the old lady behind David was like "I'm going home with you."  Lol.  So cute!
So my mom told me how much she appreciated me doing all that for my dad.  But I called HER when she told me that.  Go figure.  Oh, my dad is 69 now.  I could have sworn he was 70 now.  Let's see, he was born in 1939 so.  '49 he'd be 10, '59 he'd be 20, '69 30, '79 40, '89 50, '99 60, and... yup he's 69.  Next year will be 70!  Damn.  Lol.  He's still an old man.  I'm glad he's still alive.  Even though my parents hate him, I want my child to meet them.  Sometimes, I wonder if I'm oversensitive and maybe he's all in my head how they treat me.  But then other people see it and it makes me so sad that I'm right.  It must be nice for Sara to live in the world she does and deny the truth all the time.

I can't believe how emotional this is getting at 5am.  ENOUGH.  So, today David helped his friend Maurice fix his car and while they were working these black girls were backing out and waiting for no traffic.  So, once the traffic cleared, David told them they could go.  So, they circled the block and came back to David and the one girl was like, "would you like some chocolate?" cause you know, they're black and all.  Ugh.  It's gross but funny at the same time.  I don't know why black girls like David so much lol.  Remind me to tell you another story.
Tomorrow
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1. Call the nurse and ask about MRI
2. go to office about mail situation AGAIN
3. try calling Amanda AGAIN
4. call insurance about these bills
5. start/finish your projects so I can send this along.  lol.
6. interpret your dream if I can remember it.  Sorry.

How's your project coming?  Good I hope.  OMG it's so hot in here!  Part of it is having this fucking splint on.  I hope I can have it taken off tomorrow (pushing it) or Tuesday/Wednesday.  It's not too much to ask right?  K, well I'm going to try and sleep.  David has to be up in 45 minutes and I'm sure the light is bothering him.  I hope he'll stop snoring.  Lol.

I love you!

Love always,
Chelsea
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2-11-08 12:23pm

I didn't sleep very long.  I'm giving my nurse until 2 to call me.  Lol.  No, I'll give her until Wednesday because she did tell me it might take a week and I went to the ortho on Thursday so we'll see.  My stomach hurts.
Man, there was another tiger attack.  It was at Dreher Park zoo this time.  The zoo keeper was feeding the tiger and the tiger attaked.  I don't think the tiger knew the difference between his food and the zoo keepers body part.  I mean it's a risk these zoo keepers take, you know?
The one in San Fransisco pissed me off though.  These guys provoked the tiger while drunk and so she attacked.  And she killed a guy so they (zoo keepers or police or whoever) killed the tiger.  I was so pissed.  I mean I'm sorry the guy died but maybe the zoo shouldn't let drunk people in or serve alcoholic beverages. Don't shoot the tiger for defending itself!  Idiots!  Sorry, I kinda went off on a tangent there.  Lol.  After Days of our Lives, I think I'll put the Christina movie you got me on and that should be fun.
I want to know why the Steve Wilkos show called you, dammit.  Text or call me back, Rita!  Lol.
Oh, so the other day, David tried to wake me up and he asked me a question and I said, "I miss Mr Rabbit..." Now, I don't remember what I was dreaming about but I look up rabbits and this is what I came up with.

Pg 484
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Rabbit represents an obsessive preoccupation with mental and/or physical erotic activities.  This is a warning.  This symbol may also refer to a quiet endurance of one's personal pain.  Recall surrounding dreamscape details for clarification.

I can't do the last part but wowza.  Now, I'm pissed at myself because I had a very vivid dream when I slept and I woke up, I thought, "I should write this down in the notebook now so I don't forget" but I was so sure I'd remember.  You know?  But, no.  I forgot and only remember certain parts.
Yay!  Days of our Lives is on.  I wanted to quit watching this show.  It pissed me off but here I am watching it lol.
So, the parts of my dream I remember are being at some store with you and David.  We were outside and it was very dark, there were cars parked, the paved ground was wet.  I was looking in the distance at you and David and you were kissing all over him.  So I was really upset.  I yelled at you guys, and I got in this other car.  Nicole was driving, Traci (girls from high school) was in the backseat.  You called me on my cell phone and said you wanted to meet me at this place.  But I told you I would, hung up, then Nicole wouldn't take me.  I went home and it was my old house (on Oak Hill rd) and David was there.  I don't remember what happened now lol.  I know there was fighting.  Now I remember the other dream!  I went to Mark's house (which actually, mark lives in Vegas but in the dream he was in a neighborhood where a friend of my dad's lives).  Anyway, it was dark, I knew everyone was sleeping and I walked into Mark's house.  It's completely dark, but I turn the computer on.  Then I walked into a bedroom and turned that computer on.  Then, I walked away, came back and noticed a person on the bed sleeping.  So, I walked out to the first computer I turned on.  I was playing on it for a long time.  And the times kept changing.  It was finally like 7am and I was rushing to get off the computer.  When I did, I jumped and rushed to the door just as a man said hello to me.  I ran outside where it was still dark.  I wanted to get in the car and go home (which again was my old house on Oak Hill) but I was blocked in by all these cars.  Some kids were going to school in carpool or something.  Mark came out dressed nicely.  He spoke to me and I don't remember what was said but he knew I'd been there all along lol.  Anyway, I got in my car and started it and it kept going in circles.  Anyway, the car kept doing that and I was desperate to get home so David could get to work.  But then the car fell apart and I was like, riding a moped instead.  That's it.  Phew!  I'll interpret that before you get this back.  For now I'll try to interpret yours:
Purple: constitutes attained spiritual wisdom and enlightenment.
Notebook: a need to recall details or keep a record of something.
halfway house: is an advertisement to remove self from an undesirable situation or relationship.

I think I got it all?  Those were the keywords right?  I have trouble putting it all together.  You're better at it than me.  lol.  Amanda finally called.  She said I 100% got the job so I want to celebrate but I feel like it's wrong to do that with the bad news my dad gave me.
We talked earlier and then I called my mom to see why she was going to the doctor and she said she'd had a cat scan on her abdomen.  And she was going to get her results.  Well, she never called me back.  But my dad did.  I'm not going to tell you word for word what was said because it's too much detail (to write).
But basically my mom has a tumor on her ovaries.  So I don't know what's going to happen.  But my dad says she's really upset and refuses to talk to me or my brother.

I don't even know what to say really.

I'm watch the Christina show you got me.  She's magnificant. She really is.  She's beautiful man.  Wish I looked like her!  Ah, my tongue.