12:12pm
Hey Chels!
I'm so sorry you gotta cut your hair off because of the stupid head lice.I really did mean it when I said that if you cut yours off I would too but now I'm kinda scared to do it lol. But I might just cut my hair down to one or two lengths so it's not SO crazy. Because the bottom length is so long and then the top one is so short, everytime I braid my hair it comes out all weird. But anyway--
So...I saw this FB status last night that Steve had posted... I know I shouldn't be looking into things too much but I can't help feeling like that's the reason he doesn't want me to visit... because of some girl. He just seemed really mad at me that I didn't want him to come over here and now all of a sudden I want to go see him... we're not even in a relationship and it's already getting too difficult and confusing for me to deal with. so... I think I need to stop talking to him for a while, too. It makes me so mad that I'm thinking of trying to find someone completely different and then saying, "haha you stupid boys missed out!" But then I'd have ANOTHER boy to deal with and fuck it if I'm gonna put myself in another situation I don't really want to be in.
But...I have friends that don't completely suck, a ton of projects to work on, and family stuff to keep me busy for a while. Although lately I've been missing being snuggled, I don't miss all the garbage that comes with it.
So, I went to see the doctor today and he said I have something like "bleferitis" which is a fancy term for "swelling of the eyelid." Most likely it's from the stain I used on Monday. So... from now on, either no staining at all or use protective gear everytime I paint/stain something. The doc ended up giving me some benadryl and prednisone which hopefully will help.
So...I hope you've been enjoying reading my tarot/horoscope stuff. I am going to put a lot more in, so be warned. Hopefully I won't feel too crummy to keep up with it, and it might not be every day, but it will be the days I remember and am able to take some time to get it in here. And I started doing these daily tarot card readings... I'm gonna try and put those in here too and if I remember to do that often enough it might carry over to my next nb, which should be fun.
I am still SO pissed off about Stephanie. I know it's HER life and everything, but she made such a huge deal out of not being pregnant and being frantic about making the wrong decision about KC, to getting married to Matt... next Monday! I'm sorry, but no. I don't fucking care what her reasons are for going through with it. If he's such a great guy, why wasn't he when I was visiting? And the whole time we were at the house she kept saying she felt like he was faking. How could he do a complete 180* in less than a month? Ummm... he can't because people don't change THAT much. Wow... and I just checked my blacklisted numbers... both Barry and Stephanie texted me and apparently according to Stephanie I'm the only one who responded negatively to her eloping. I REFUSE to believe that's really true. Because before I even showed up her friends were all concerned for her so what's changed in under a month?
12:59pm
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4:22pm
hey Lady,
I feel a little bit better now... took a nap and still feel a bit out of it but way less angry than I was before. Still pretty upset though... that whole family is cracked. I have no idea what Barry is even talking about.. I'm not talking to any of his friends, mutual or otherwise. The only mutual friend we even had is Korey and I haven't spoken to him since February. So the only thing I can even think of is that it has to do with the strange numbers that have been calling me. He very well could have gotten some friends to prank call me, then when I pick up the phone or call back he has the "right" to yell at me about it. How fucking stupid is that? Well...I have both him and Stephanie on blacklist anyway with no intention of taking them off of it. I seriously don't get how Memorial Day weekend happened, then she's pissing and moaning about breaking up with KC, worried about being pregnant, to marrying Matt? All within a 2 month period? I was there for the horror show that was Memorial Day and through all of that bitching and moaning, and yet I'm the ONLY one who has a problem with Matt and this fucking joke of a marriage? So... everyone is fine now after not even two weeks of him being "perfect"? What the fuck EVER. I am done. I'm done with my stupid shitty ex who is probably just mad that I didn't immidately start texting him accusing him of giving my number out so we'd be in a fight and he'd get what he wanted--me speaking to him--and I'm done with Stephanie who made such a fucking big deal about how horrible Matt was just to turn around and marry him right off the bat. Fuck both of them.
Ugh my eye is ITCHING like fucking CRAZY today. I'm gonna put some ice on it, maybe if it's frozen it won't itch as much.
<3,
me
4:40pm
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10:33pm
Hey chels,
Ugh stupid prednisone tastes YUCKY! Now my mouth is all gross. But anyway... so in a strange twist to this very interesting summer I'm having... guess who texted me today out of the blue? Larry. And he was full on flirting with me, saying he misses me and all of this stuff. I finally got to tell him about that dream I had about him a few weeks ago. He said that that sounded like something he'd do for real and I said that it felt the same as him in real life :). And he's talking about getting together sometime soon. He has the 4th of July off but I told him I already had plans and he says, "Just checking lol." i said, "that's what happens when you leave me alone too much, I make other plans." Lol! Honestly though I did think about breaking my plans but you know what... he can't get too busy to talk to me for over a month and then expect me to just be sitting on my butt waiting for him. This is the summer of me, dammit! But... just in case, I'm going to clean my room up in case he does come over sometime soon. And by that I mean...hide my wicca stuff. I really don't want to do that but I don't want to get into a discussion about it and all of that stuff. Maybe I'll only have to put away a couple of things, the rest of it looks pretty normal. I should really clean up my room anyways because it's starting to get on my nerves.
At any rate.... tomorrow is FRIDAY! Squee! I think during the day I'm gonna clean/organize my room and then go out with Geoff later. He is taking me out as a thank you for helping him on Monday. We're going to have some dinner and then see Ted.
<3,
me
10:56pm
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