Friday, November 14, 2014

July 23rd, 2012

July 23rd, 2012
12:51am

Hey Chels,
I wasn't finished with that but I'll pick it up again later.

SO... I have just been thinking.  It could be dangerous to think but frankly, I don't care.  As I lay in bed reading my book my mind starts to wander over to different things.  Tonight I was just thinking about my life and how it's been so far.  I can still remember being a teenager living in this very same room after my gramma died thinking about when my life was really going to start. I had like 2 boyfriends in high school, the rest were online boys that all ended up disappearing for a while.  I finally "met" someone I feel like I have a real connection with and he ends up being a huge disappointment.  I still have no idea what my past life was like but I am alive for this one and I want to make it count.  I want those journals that I've made to be put in a safe place so I can find them again.  I dunno, Chels.  Sometimes I am just happy to be alive and living in the moment and then other times I have so many questions.  Like... Monique has told me that when we enter a new life, we already have an "out."  Some people decide to go together in a huge group, and others go by themselves.  I'm not sure how true this is but she also told me that we choose the things that happen to us so we can learn the lessons we're supposed to learn in this life for whatever comes next.  I don't know about you, but I'm not sure why I would choose to have a string of boyfriends who were ALL addicts.  So I could learn to trust my instincts and to stand up for myself?  I have no idea.
What I do know is that even though I have been through some really shitty times in my life, I am thankful to be stronger because of it and to have a friend like you.  I want to keep these journals with me always.  I think my heaven would be a huge book case filled with all of our notebooks to each other and all of the volumes of my life, all of my innermost thoughts and feelings, even fears.  And my "job" would be to follow people around, observing them and jotting down my observations about them, like an Angelic Harriet the spy.  I wish I could help, too, but I think angels are only supposed to interfere if asked specifically.
I do think it's cool that I'm gonna go through some of these notebooks that say, "I wonder how many of these I'll have once I turn 30."  The answer to that would be up to 25.  I think I'm going to have to switch over to my laptop for typing everything up, it's taking forever.  Unless I need to just devote more time to it, which also very well could be possible.
Wow... the last page in this subject.  I can't believe I've had this since January.  SO much has changed since then.  I can't believe I'm going to be 30 this year and not only am I not married, I am still single.  But I'd rather be that than tied to any of these jerks.
I'm gonna do something I haven't done for a while.  I'm gonna snuggle up and watch some Olga Kay before going to sleep.

<3 you!
Rita

11:20am
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July 23rd, 2012
4:39pm

Book reviews, con't...
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So, the 3 senior girls were messing with her and putting dead animals in her locker and they were torturing her when this girl named Diana rescued her.  Now she gets to eat lunch with people and feels more accepted.  The thing that kind of bothers me about this character (that I realize might change later and I hope it does) is that Cassie doesn't believe in herself too much yet and she just basically lets these bullies walk all over her.  And she wants to join this group called The Club, which I believe is a coven that is made up of the people who have lived there their whole lives.  It wouldn't be as important to me to join this club as long as I could still be friends with people, but whatever, that's just me.  I just hope this girl becomes a little more independent as she becomes more aware of her powers.  Oh and apparently everyone who lives on the street she lives on are all friends with each other and look out for each other but some of them look down on her because she just moved there.
I think she might be a more powerful witch than anyone realizes and she won't need this club or she will end up being a leader or something important.
Also, I know this already from reading the back of the book, but... the guy she met at the beach in the beginning of the story's name is Adam and he is Diana's boyfriend. So... I will report back when I get to the part where Adam shows up and Cassie realizes this.  I really hope she doesn't end up crossing Diana, and yet another part of me feels like Diana is actually a real bitch but I'm hoping I'm wrong.  The way she's described in the book, it's like she is the Greek Goddess, Diana.  Alright, back to the story!!
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Well, not sure how I'm liking this.  I mean, I really like it, I get why the author did what she did, but it's just annoying to me right now.  So, the one girl that was supposed to be initiated into the club was mysteriously killed, and Cassie was the one who had found the body. Shortly afterwards, she was taken from her bed and initiated into the club herself.  One of the girls had asked her what she was going to do first and she wanted to find Adam and the girl told her a spell she could do but she just said a poem in her head, sort of an incantation, and he appeared.  She didn't want anyone to know that he was the boy she was talking about so she just let Diana introduce them.  So, he told everyone he found a tool some evil guy had used and hidden and Faye wanted it for her own personal use but Diana didn't want to do anything with it until it was cleared of all negative energy.  But Faye threatened her authority so Diana said they could take a look at it.  Well, they all took a loot at it and they were supposed to see what they could see and stay connected but someone broke the circle and Faye really wanted it for herself but Diana took it away.  Adam took Cassie home and he asked her what was up and she told him everything she was feeling and he felt the same way but they both loved Diana so they chose to stop whatever was going on.  The next day, Faye blackmailed Cassie into becoming her slave, holding that secret above her head.  And that's where the book ended.

You know, if it were me I would told Faye to shove it and would have just told Diana the truth.  Because these things always have a way of coming out and I'd rather Diana hear the truth from me than some stupid bitch with too much ambition own me.  I hope that this is only temporary and that Cassie can stick up for herself better in the next book.  Anyway, onto get some food and get started on the next book!!

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The Captive, part 1
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So... this book took a shorter amount of time to read than the first one.  Cassie found the skull and Faye got it to start working but Cassie stopped the dark energy from whatever it was going to do to her but Faye got mad.  Now Cassie feels guilty about Adam and this skull thing.  I would have taken the skull to Diana and explained the whole thing right then and there, soup to nuts.  But anyway, so there was a homecoming dance and Diana got sick so she called Cassie and asked if she'd go with Adam.  She agreed and she got made up so beautifully that all the boys wanted to dance with her.  She went looking for one of her friends and saw one of the guys she had been dancing with hanging from a ceiling fan and she went into shock but a couple of guys found her and got here out of there.  They all went looking for the dark energy and they were lead to a cemetary but nothing really came of it.  I think Faye is the dark energy and I think she's the one who has been killing people.  But... Cassie's powers are getting stronger and I hope that she will just come out and speak her truth to Diana, it will be purer than if Faye says anything.  And at the end she realized that the way people have been dying was the way that people were being killed during the Salem Witch Trials, although none of the people who died were actually IN the club!  One girl died on her own birthday and was so excited to finally be initiated but never got to be, one person was the principal, and the last person was the captain of the football team. So... hopefully in the next book we will have an answer.

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