July 14th, 2012

July 14th, 2012
10:53pm

Hey Chels,
What's the haps, girl? Today is my dad's birthday.  he is officially 60!  Last year my parents and I took Barry to a Kane County Cougars game and he was acting weird all night.  He wouldn't even put his arm around me or show me any affection at all.  It was kinda lame, actually.  This year I got a pedicure with my mom, then Kendra and Niko came by to drop off the cuppycakes, then Amy and Andy and their crazy dogs came over, then we went to Lonestar and after a WHILE my cousins Jerry, Gary, Maddy and Chloe got there and we had a nice dinner.  Then Amy and my mom played scrabble while I was antisocial and stayed in my room.  After they left (Amy, Andy, and the mutts), I took Snickers for a walk and now I'm writing to you :).  It feels weird not doing that horoscope stuff everyday.  I gotta make up for that somehow.
So... I had ANOTHER exboyfriend dream.  This one was about Brian.  We lived in a high rise apartment and I was trying to move out all my stuff with no help from him AND a broken elevator.  Needless to say it was a very annoying dream but at least this time I didn't have to shoot anyone in the throat (lol).

So... I've been thinking a lot about Larry lately.  Not like he's never NOT on my mind but... there are just certain things I think about.  When we were first "together," (or had sex for the first time, whatever you'd like to call it), afterwards he was holding me and he whispered to me, "can I keep you?" It was just really sweet and a part of me would really like to ask him if he remembers asking me that.  I'm sure my answer would change from, "I'll think about it," lol.
also, there was a time back when I first broke up with my ex that he was telling me all these romantic things like how I'm worth waiting for and he would be the luckiest guy in the world and a whole bunch of other things.  We've come a long way but he never brought any of that stuff up again.  My thought is that he knew if we were going that route that fast we would have broken up already.  But I just want to know if he remembers any of it.  I think it's out of curiosity but also it's my way of finding out what his intentions are.  I could ask him that, but I don't think he would like that lol.  I'm gonna wait until the next time we're together and bring up some version of that whole thing.

11:16pm