12:53pm
Hey you!
Wow... today is Friday the 13th. Spooky! I can't believe how far I got in here... the horoscope stuff definitely helped. I think I'm gonna keep the dreams and actual horoscope, those were my favorites. I have so much stuff to work on now... it actually feels pretty great. Book reviews, song lyric analyzing, Twilight, Horoscopes, pictures, and poems. Some of that stuff will be in the next one, but were thought of in this one :). I'm just gonna keep getting stuff ready and as soon as I finish this one, the next one is going to go by like that (snaps).
So... guess who I talked to last night... my old massage teacher! I told her a little bit about Larry (well, a gemini I was into) and she said that back and forth behavior that drives me crazy is because he's a gemini and I'm a scorpio, lol. I guess a scorpio is a "fixed" sign which I guess means we pretty much are the way we are all the time. I love how when I'm explaining something in my life to someone who "understands" scorpios, they always say the same thing: "That is such a scorpio thing to do." LIke when I got mad at certain people and then changed my phone number without telling anyone, or getting so crazy about why sometimes Larry texts me and then other times he doesn't. Yeah okay he's a gemini but I think there might be more to it, like how he has to work and then whatever else. Dude... I don't know lol. But the truth is that right now his life is about work, softball and camping and mine is about being on my own for the summer... creative projects and enjoying myself and trying to heal myself so when he DOES want to talk about the possiblity of a relationship, I won't run screaming. We've already established the fact that we're not sleeping with anyone else, so whether or not we're texting back and forth all day or not, that's not as important as when we are together. But... this is what I wanted, too. I didn't want an instant relationship. I wanted to be able to focus on myself without getting caught up in another guy and shoving my feeling aside again. Everything I've said in here I know I'm going to say eventually but I'm not there yet. I know that at least Larry would never take advantage or me or my feelings. He knows I like him and I wouldn't be sleeping with him if I didn't feel something for him besides friendship. So the hard part now is just waiting. But I DID say in the beginning that sex would be okay because I didn't know how long it would take for me to want to be in a relationship and I didn't want to wait that long for sex (although I very well could have). I dunno... sometimes I still wonder what it would be like if I still hadn't of slept with him but honestly I don't regret a thing. He's a good kid :).
Anyways, I want to play this game I'm obsessed with before I have to get ready and leave. I love you!
Love,
Rita
1:04pm
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6:26pm
Hey Chels!
So... my afternoon got cut short when I got this text from my mom saying my dad fainted. I am getting REALLY sick of this happening. My dad saves everything for my mom to deal with and then whatever plans I have get squished. And then sometimes I don't hear from my parents at all.
So... the past life thing turned out to be really interesting. I started out as an angel who was sent to heal people and in every life I've lived I've been a healer in some respect. In my first past life it had to have been in the last 50 years because I wore PF Flyer shoes. So you and I were living in Chicago but we were homeless so we stayed in shelters at night and protected each other. This one day you were at a recital and I was supposed to come see you but this car hit me and it ended up being this guy whose wife was sick and I couldn't save her.
Then I was in Ireland in 1492. I had to leave my family because people were starting to call me a witch. So this king and queen found me, I think I was 16 at this point. They took me in and were nice people but didn't understand my talents so everything had to be kept secret. So there was this guy who I think worked there that had a crush on me but who I was afraid of and he ended up pushing me off the roof of the castle. And I didn't die at first, I was just paralyzed for a while until my body gave out. But you and I hadn't found each other yet.
That's pretty much everything. Oh, and apparently I don't know this guy personally but I've seen him before in THIS life. Yikes.
<3,
me
6:45pm
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