August 3rd, 2012

August 3rd, 2012
7:39pm

hey Sweets,
So, today was nbs day.  I was just going to work on one thing but decided that I would work on a little bit of everything.  So I'm giving myself an hour for each thing... kind of like classes at school, lol.  I still feel like I haven't gotten too far with anything but once I get paid and can get the printer paper I want and finally go to kinko's and get those pictures copied, I think it will go by faster.  So... before I put in here what I was going to put in here last night, I have a little update for you.  I think it's proper considering all the things I have been through with this nb this year, it's sort of like a conclusion of sorts.
So.. Barry received his sentence yesterday.  He plead guilty so there is no trial.  He is getting 2 years of probation and major drug testing.  The funny thing is, the place where people like him go to pee in a cup is in the same building where my mom works.  I'm not sure if that's where he'll go, but if he does, there's no doubt he will run into her.  Now instead of being done with probation in January 2013, he has to stay clean until August 4th, 2014.  You think he can do it?  I don't, either.  Especially if he's still with Jenelle.  A lot can happen in 2 years, but as long as he doesn't try and involve me in it, then I'm fine with the outcome. He DID spend 2 months in jail already, and he DIDN'T really hurt anyone besides himself (although he did a number on a lot of people emotionally, but whatever).  So... it's still a nice way to wrap things up on that subject.
....Moving on...
So, how did you like my little circle thing I did last night?  There was something that I wanted to put in here but I was too tired. This would go in number 4.

The Charge of the Goddess
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Listen now to the words of the great mother:
she would of old was also called among men Artemis, Astarte, Athene, Dione, Melusine, Aphrodite, Cerridwen, Diana, Arianrhod, Isis, Brigid, and by many other names:

Whenever you have need of anything, once in the month, and better it be when the moon is full, then shall you assemble in some secret place and adore the spirit of me, who am Queen of all Witches.  There shall you assemble, you who would learn all sorcery, yet have not won its deepest secrets; to you will I teach things that are yet unknown.  And you shall be free from slavery, and as a sign that you be free, you shall be naked in your rites. And you shall dance, sing, feast, make music and love, all in my presence; for mine is the ecstasy of the spirit, and mine is also joy on earth; for my law is love unto all beings. Keep pure your highest ideal; strive ever towards it; let nothing stop you or turn you aside.  For mine is the secret door which opens upon the land of youth, and mine is the cup of the wine of life, and the cauldron of which is the holy grail of immorality.  I am the gracious Goddess, who gives the gift of joy unto the hearts of my people.  Upon Earth, I give the knowledge of the spirit eternal; and beyond death, I give peace, and freedom, and reunion with those who have gone before.  Nor do I demand aught of sacrifice; for behold, I am the Mother of all living, and my love is poured out upon the Earth.

hear the words of the Star Goddess; the dust of whose feet are the hosts of heaven, and whose body encircles the universe:

I who am the beauty of the green Earth, and the white moon among the stars, and the mystery of the waters, and the desire of the hearts of men and women, call unto your soul: arise, and come unto me.  For I am the soul of Nature, who gives life to the universe.  From me all things proceed, and unto me all things must return; and before my face, beloved of gods and of all people, let your innermost divine self be enfolded in the rapture of the infinite.  Let my worship be within the heart that rejoices; for behold; all acts of love and pleasure are my rituals.  And therefore let there be beauty and strength, power and compassion, honor and humility, mirth and reverence within you.  And you who think to seek for me, know that your seeking and yearning shall avail you not, unless you know the mystery: if that which you seek, you find not within yourself, then you shall never find it without. For behold, I have been with thee from the beginning, and I am that which is attained at the end of desire.
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There are 3 more charges to put in but I only have 8 minutes before I have to start on the next thing and I want to eat some dinner.  But the good news is... the next nbs is also in here!