Saturday, November 22, 2014

1/5/13

1-5-13
11:06am
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Oops sorry for not finishing that.  Danielle came and got me.  So, I met this girl through Dawson and Romeo (Bobby) and she is really sweet person.  Every Friday though, she tells me to come to Skeeters because there’s this guy Tim she likes.  I don’t know… it’s a long story. She and Romeo were “so in love” then drama so she got with his best friend Tim, then drama (Eww I need to change and do laundry so I may take a break soon).  Tim was/is a shithead to her and in April this cute army guy she’s into comes home so I don’t know why she even still fucks around with Tim.  Why does anyone need a guy in their life?  Yes I’m boy crazy and you saw how many guys I went through.  But I was fine when I didn’t like anyone.  But you know, when I went to Skeeters every Friday because I love karaoke and then met Ryan, I went by myself until I made friends.  And I used to think I was pretty shy.  Nope.  I’m pretty outgoing (that’s one good thing Erin did for me).  So I don’t know why she can’t go without a friend and then make some?  And guess when she doesn’t text me or go hang out?  EVER, or when her best friend goes with her.  Yea.  The other problem I have with her is that she buys me food and drink and I don’t want her to think I am using her.  Last night she asked me about Skeeters and the wings and when we got there she’d ordered me some and got me a rum and coke.  That is really nice.  But today (and I asked if the wings were ok for her to eat while on weight watchers and she said it was ok) she posts on Facebook:
Working hard on this weight watchers thing. I feel a difference but I wish it was noticeable and I had more people helping me work at it cuz doing it on your own is VERY DIFFICULT.

I hope it wasn’t directed at me because I didn’t ask for chicken wings.  Plus, yea losing weight is hard.  You’ll see my plan in the next part of this.  I’m thinking of finishing part 2 real quick then taking a break to figure laundry/shower out.  My shirt smells like garlic and smoke and it’s making my stomach hurt.
I love hearing about your faith in God and I’m so thrilled that my devotions didn’t offend you.  I’m glad you’re going to heaven with me too.  I wish Brian would believe too but I’m just glad he agreed to go to church with me in Indiana via that I’m willing to try it for him.  Hey, whatever it takes lol.
Now I’m reading about what your plans for the next nb will be lololol. I can’t wait to start reading that because I want to see if you followed through.  :D

Ahhh 2 girls 1 cup is so disgusting.  You can’t find it on youtube anymore thank God but it is sooooo gross.  And yes they eat poop in it.  Ugh.

Breaking Dawn part 1, aside from the hokey wolf part, was very good.  TBh--I did like part 2 I just… had issues with it.  That’s all.  I’m not sure when that’s out on DVD but if it’s after V-day then this will be later than I originally planned.  So sorry.  We shall see though.  If it’s after v-day then Idk what i’ll do maybe I’ll just send the nb and you will get your v-day gift after.  Hmmmm.

Alright, I finally finished your vol 8 notebook and I can officially start on vol 12!  (it’s actually vol 10 lol).  Woot.  That means I can use the last 20 pages of this bad mamma jamma to comment on the NB.  Which is good because the next one will just be regular journalling and hopefully I’ll get it all done.
So, I for one am thrilled you aren’t friends with Monique anymore.  She sounds toxic and at first I liked her but after knowing everything… *SMH*

Ok, I am going to grab some food, get my laundry together, shower, grab the next nb, start my laundry, and then come back to nbs day!  squee!  I love this rainy Saturday day!

1:22pm
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2:30pm

Hi again!  I feel much better. My clothes are washing, I ate, I showered, and now I am on vol 10!  So far, I love it.  The Twilight book entries are very cool.  Lmao, after my shower, I accidentally caused the shower curtain to fall--pole and all.  Whoops.  Then, all we have in the fridge is spoiled crap and leftover pig.  I know Rory worked really hard on that pig, and he spent his money to do it.  However, I just don’t like it and I probably will not be eating ham, pork, bacon, or sausage ever again.  So, I made myself oatmeal with water because the milk was curdling.  It was good though. I kind of started my “diet” already but I won’t be really serious about it until Sunday, Jan 6th, 2013 (tomorrow).  I think I’ll weigh myself sometimes but I’m not working off by lbs.  I’m going by how I feel and noticable difference.  If I go by lbs, I’ll just get discouraged.  But yea, I am excited I get to log is all for you.  What I am trying to decide is whether to do it in the journally nb or use a separate one though.  I’ll do both and then in vol 13 I will have another nb already done of all my fitness/healthy weight.  Well, we will see.  Lmao.  But yea, so my mom and I watched Dr Oz one day and he was doing a show on body types.  My mom and I are “apples” lol.  I think I am going to look for the ep on youtube and put it all in here!  Which starts on the next page.

I’m definitely going to finish this part of the nb today!  Yay!

Apple Body Type
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Apples have a tendency to put on belly fat, have found faces, have humps in their upper backs, and may have thin legs.  Traditional methods of weight loss like cutting calories and aggressive exercise routines do not work for this body type.  Why?  A low-calorie diet and too much exercise translate as starvation and stress to this body type--which can increase the production of cortisol, the stress hormone, increased amounts of cortisol can slow metabolism--and is known to contribute to belly fat and an increased waist size.  Cortisol also floods the body with sugar.  When your body does not use it for energy, it gets stored as fat.  belly fat is especially dangerous because it surrounds so many of your vital organs.  Apples may also suffer a lot of inflammation or pain particularly in the joints, back or neck.  they are also at greater risk for high blood pressure, heart disease, diabetes and breast cancer.

How Apples Can Turbo Charge their metabolism:
Apples should eat foods low on the glycemic index.  One way to do this is my cutting out carbs.  Carbs spike blood sugar. So reducing or eliminating them from your diet would prevent this and keep cortisol controlled.  The less cortisol, the less belly fat.

Apples can replace simple carbs with the following foods:
1. Lentils, which are packed with protein and require more energy for the body to break down.
2. Red pepper hummus, also rich in protein; the spices can also boost metabolism.
3. eggplant makes a great carb substitute when used in certain recipes, for example: an eggplant lasagna, it gives you the same density and texture as pasta.

Pear BodyType
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pears are plagued by what we know as “junk in the trunk.”  Pears carry most of their weight on their lower hips, thighs, and butt.  And perhaps most frustrating of all, a stubborn pooch of tummy fat.  While it may take longer to accumulate this type of fat, it’s much harder to get rid of.  Why?  This type of fat is influenced by estrogen, and estrogen makes fat.  When a woman gets pregnant, estrogen spikes (which is why many women keep the weight on long after the baby is born).  when a woman has a heavy period, estrogen spikes--making more fat.  The good news is, this type of fat is not as dangerous as belly fat but it may be more unsightly as it can become that cheesy, cellulite-type fat that is every woman’s nightmare.  And while, an apple cannot become a pear, with excessive weight gain, a pear may wind up transforming into an apple.
Pears are at a greater risk for osteoporosis.  During menopause, pears make much weaker estrogen, which is not strong enough to keep calcium in the bones. Other health issues for this type are cellulite, varicose veins, and joint problems.
How Pears Can Turbocharge Their Metabolism:
The secret: High fiber foods.  Fiber binds to the estrogen in your gut and carries it out of your body when you go to the bathroom.  Keeping your body’s estrogen in balance in this manner can enhance your weight loss effects and improve your silhouette.

Try these high-fiber foods:
1. Edamame: rich in phytoestrogens to regulate your estrogen levels.
2. whole wheat pasta: a great swap for regular pasta that will fill you up fast.
3. figs are a fruit with one of the highest levels of fiber.  If you have a sweet tooth, dried figs are a healthy way to help you get your fix.

Box body type:
If you find yourself possessing the attributes of both an apple and a pear, you are likely a box body type.  Unfortunately, as America’s weight problem continues to grow, this body type is also on the rise.  This body type is most concerning because of its wide range of health implications.  It affects the thyroid gland, and those carrying excess weight with this body type, run a greater risk of experiencing depression, memory loss, high cholesterol and an enlarged heart.  If you are a box and you are lacking enough thyroid hormones, every cell in the body gets fatter due to a slowing of your overall metabolism.   Since the thyroid controls the metabolism, all the body processes are slowed, including digestion, mental clarity, and even absorption of vitamins.

How Boxes Can Turbocharge their Metabolism:
The box shape is regulated by the thyroid hormone.  A healthy thyroid speeds up the metabolism.

The secret:
Foods high in selenium and iodine.  Iodine is vital for healthy thyroid hormone production and the essential mineral selenium may help decrease inflammation that can cause an underactive thyroid.  Today, many people use kosher or sea salt, but these salts to not contain iodine.  To help maintain healthy thyroid function, reach for traditional iodized table salt when seasoning food.

You can also try the following foods:
1: seaweed: a great snack packed with both nutrients
2. shrimp: also a good source of vitamin D
3. sunflower seeds: just one third of a cup makes for a great daily snack.
*I may incorporate this with my apple one.

Metabolism boosters for every body type:
Harissa: A metabolism boosting spice blend of hot chiles, garlic, cumin, and colander.  Spices that “burn” provide an immediate metabolic boost.  When foods heat the body, it is an indicator of the metabolic burn.  Harissa is available at your supermarket, or you can buy all four ingredients and make your own blend; mix with olive oil to make its nutrients more available.  All you need is ? of a teaspoon per meal.  Sprinkle it on everything from eggs to protein to vegetables.

Grapefruit
jalapenos
fresh or canned sardines
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9:23pm
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Ahhh, downloading some kind of program that Brian’s all excited about, then editing my new video, then uploading it.  Lol.  So much involved.  I hope I don’t get eliminated this round.  Lol, you are going to be “hearing” that a lot -- or at least until I’m eliminated or win haha.  I am thankful for being in this competition because it gives me motivation to continue after it’s over.  I can take requests and work on my own pace.  Your request for “Hurt”is first (by Christina Aguilera) but I don’t think I’ll do it until I’m eliminated or win youtube idol.  So far:
1)Any Man of Mine--Shania Twain
2) You’ll Be in my Head--Phil Colllins
3) Footprints in the sand--Leona Lewis
4) Roxie--Chicago
5) Cheers theme song
So I know I discussed this in video but I can get more depth in here.  Oh and for my audition I did: At Last by Etta James.  The judges said it would be better not acapella.  They for some reason do not like acapella.  Now, for pitch reasons I understand--but I like acapella a lot. Sometimes I sing better acapella.  After round 1, I never want to sing, much less hear Any Man of Mine ever again.  Lol.  It would have been way cuter if I’d moved around.  I had plans for a cowboy hat but I never could get my hands on one.
For round 2, I did “You’ll Be in my Heart” by Phil Collins.  It was Disney week and the one I wanted was gone (I cannot for the life of me figure out what I originally wanted) so I chose “You’ll Be in my Heart.”  It was low for me, but I seriously thought it was cute with the panda. Still, the judges thought it was too corny.  I just figured that the movie was about wild animals raising a human and I guess I just took it too literal.  I mean, yea, it was corny so… I get it.
The 3rd week's was songs we could dedicate to the events of the Sandy Hook elementary school shooting in Newtown, CT.  I chose Footprints In The Sand by Leona Lewis.  It was very hard--not only because I had a hard time hitting the high notes (I think I was just afraid to let go honestly) plus the emotion of the meaning of the song plus being in a cemetery was very emotionally taxing.
Somehow, Fabian (a judge) loved it… lmao.  IMO--not my best.  I know what I’m capable of!  Oh well, they liked it.  That’s all that matters.  So, round 4 was Broadway musicals and not to toot my own horn, but broadway musicals are my thing!  So of course I chose Chicago.  I remember putting that soundtrack on and doing the whole “show” for my mom.  I mean she smiled through the whole thing.  I loved doing it!  So I know I had that shit in the bag when I chose Roxie (the name on everyone’s lips) lol.  And I was right.  Everyone loved it and it was the most fun I’ve had so far in this competition.  Round 5 is TV themes from our birth decade.  I initially chose Cheers.  I tried to change it to Charles In Charge but wasn’t allowed, so Cheers it is. Luckily, I came up with a cute skit.  Now, it’s literal and short but I hope it still goes over well.  Please do not eliminate me.  I want to make it to the top 3 at least, then my game face goes on.  It’s on now, but I mean it will really be on then.  In other news, (I’ll work harder on our channel videos in a couple weeks or when I start the review videos)....
alright, so as you know, I went to Skeeters last night.  However, I also went to see Texas Chainsaw Massacre 3D.  Rory wanted to go too so we scooped him up too.  I don’t know why we still do nice things for him but Brian loaned him $7 extra to go. The good news is that Brian’s car caused problems again and this time, Rory was there to help (I’m not sure if he needs a new battery or not). Also, tonight he bought us dinner at the restaurant he works at.  So yay!  Anyway, Texas chainsaw Massacre was pretty good.  I really liked it!  It’s Brian’s favorite movie ever (besides Jason and Freddy movies) and I felt bad because he was falling asleep throughout it.  lol.
Ugh, Omg I wanted to finish this tonight but it doesn’t look like that’s going to happen because nobody will leave me the fuck alone and now we’re going to The Blue anchor to meet Brian’s parents.  First of all, I look like complete crap tonight.  It’s already almost midnight.  I wasn’t gonna go out tonight because I just wanted to do nbs.  Well guess what? I am gonna sit here and write until Brian is walking out the door lmao.  The shitty thing is I’m not sure what else to write. If I comment as I read it will take even longer. I wonder what the next round will be for youtube idol. Omg!  Someone else just dropped out. WTF!  I don’t want to win by default.  I want to win because I am great and deserve to win.  I think people just get frustrated and you know, I understand that.  I could be wrong, but I am probably the only one not working so I have “time,” others don’t.  Even though I don’t work, I have accomplished a lot!
California!
Finishing my first novel (well, first draft)
this (almost) 
doing youtube idol
our channel
etc.
So yea, I wish I was working but the economy is bad and I am doing other great things.  No, I’m not traveling to bars to sing like you suggested but I’m doing what I love and getting exposure from it.  So I am patting myself on the back.  Also, I applied for a job at Costco, which will be good to have until we move.
Omg it is 12am and Brody (almost 10) and Gabby (almost 5) are both still awake.  I know it’s Saturday night but gosh damn.  *smh* I think I may be too strict when I have kids.  Because I’m already strict with Brody and Gabby and no, I’m not their mom but they need discipline somewhere from someone who’s not screaming it.  Not gonna lie, I do yell at Gabby but she does not listen at all.  She’s so rebellious already and no is her favorite word already.  That shit boils my blood.  I know I did it to my mom and I am so sorry.  SORRY MOM!  Lol.  
Anyway, I can’t believe I didn’t write about this when it happened, but I am so sad about the Sandy Hook school shooting.  It makes me so sick to know someone was that mentally ill that he’d kill innocent people--including children.  Those kids are my heroes, Rita (well, you are too).  I wish I could hug all the parents and tell them their child is a fucking hero!  Question: If your child had been going to school when it happened and was a survivor, would you send them back to school?  Brian asked me and I said yes--I would.  First of all, I think pulling them out would be a mistake because I would want to keep them going on in life.  You know?  Shit should stay as normal as can be.  2nd of all, I would make sure they saw a psychiatrist too and that I kept the lines of communication between my child and me open.  3rd of all, the chances or that actually happening there again/anytime soon are very very slim I think.  Of course, I hope nothing like this ever happens to me and my kids. I wouldn’t mind homeschooling them but Brian is against that because he wants our kids to be socialized, so I’m thinking private school would be good.  *I* had a hard time in private school, but at least I learned something.  The public schools here aren’t good.  Then again, I may not be raising kids here.  Still, I think I prefer private school lmao.

Alright lady, I think that’s it!  Can’t believe I finished this part in less than 2 weeks!

Love Always,
Bells

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