7:40pm
Hooooooome yay. Ugh. Today sucked ass, Rita. Tamara and I were $1200 behind our goal, and she drove me crazy! She was telling me to put my acting skills to use, and greet people as they entered Dillard's w/ the blockbuster cards and as I'm halfway there, Tamara is like, "CHELSEA!" and she fuckin' makes me come all the way back so we can have a meeting about fragrance. Then she left an hour early because her 17 year old daughter got bit by a bug at 3 something what the hell? I was sick all day and I not only went to work, I stayed. WTH. See, she has a lot of nerve telling me all she does because what kind of excuse is that? No, she just wanted to leave.
I just saw a Dillard's commercial for Lancome. God fobid Estee Lauder gets a commercial for Dillards! *eye roll*
Oh, and guess what else Tam did? Yea, we get this phone call from a lady working at a senior home in Lantana. They wanted us to come to a field trip and give them makeovers. I thought it would be so much fun! Tamara just up and decides that no, we can't do it so she gives it to Dee. So, I mean it's good that Dee has a chance to do it since she no longer works w/ us but I'm pretty disappointed. :(.
So, David and I "celebrated" my birthday last night. And we went to Fridays but then we ended up going all the way to Okeechobee for pool w/ Jsin who hit on me all night cause he was drunk. It was funny but yet, not funny. I don't know. It got old, David didn't seem to care... and that sucked because he's jealous 99% of the time. I mean, I realize that's his best friend and all so he doesn't really have anything to worry about, but if it were my guy friends joking around like that, he'd be so pissed. Ugh.
And when he left this morning, I was so sad. =(. I hate that I'm having a hard time w/ him being gone and when I finally was able to call him back, he was like, "hey love you. g2g bye" grrrr. Gee, I feel missed. I know, I'm such a brat. Lol.
Oh, this pen is driving me insane.
Well, it's 9pm and I thought you'd be here by now to do your laundry and I need to shower, do the dishes and eat dinner before I go online and sing my head off lol. So I am going to call you.
Wow, Sara has something she needs to talk to David about but who knows what it's about. Too bad he's gone for a week. I wanna know what's going on lol.
K, well since you're not coming over, lol, I'm gonna go to my stuff! So, I'll write in this starting tomorrow or something. Tomorrow is all about the notebook yay!
<3,
Chelsea
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I think I know you
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See, I think I know you...
You're what a person wakes up to everyday and you're what so many people can smile at. Loving the feeling that you give them and at the same time, you are that gnawing depression in the pit of a starved person's stomach growing each passing second. You are the red balloon in the little boy's hand that abruptly sails away... so far into the endless sky, as the crying of a helpless child fades away...
You are the birds in the tree in the early morning as they sing a wakeup call. You are the cricket at night that sings into a fulfilling sleep. You are the sound of laughter, the tear rolling down someone's cheek. You are the empty hollow words of an angry woman in heavy traffic, you cause so much pain, you laugh in a mocking manner. You're unfair, yet so beautiful, rich, wonderous. Yes, i think i know you. You're life.... right?
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As I Walk Along the Beach
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As I walk along the beach,
the wind whispers restlessly
calling out my name.
The sand meets my feet
desperately
As it plays its game
the sun shines brightly
glowing upon my face
it engulfs itself upon my body
as I slow up my pace
As I walk along the beach
A song plays inside my head
as I walk along the beach,
the water meets its dread
it swallows up the sand that once met
my feet
as I walk along the beach
the cycle itself repeats
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Melted Wings
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... take this beautiful bird ...
and flying seemed impossible
her life filled with the
"I'm afraid" and the "what if's"
the "I can't do it" or "I'm not good enough"
and where was faith and hope
when this bird could not fly?
her melted wings tell a story
one that will someday be a success
and she will fly...
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life
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Deep into oblivion
like the stars out in space
my eyes seem to wander
over this wonderous place
people busily passing by
on their way out the door
and I wonder
what am I living for
is it for the birds in the trees?
or the clouds in the sky?
is it the gentle breeze
that sets my spirits high?
maybe it's to learn
how to love people all around
and to appreciate laughter
life's beautiful sound
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the wind
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A rose bent by its stem
colored a deep beautiful red
and the wind tosses it gracefully
among its earthbound bed
leaves scatter carelessly
dancing to their own little song
and a gentle breeze envelopes me
all day long
trees drawing a picture
towards the endless sky
bowing their heads
to the birds flying so high
the wind...
is a neverending song
that envelopes me
all day long...
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The Candle Burned White
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The storm raged on
violent in all its glory
crying out in low whistles, and grumbles
striking out the brightest light it
could muster
to anyone that proved its power wrong
and inside, she stirred silently
from one position to the next
focusing on the words
flowing through her
ever-so waried mind
she kept it
dimmed in her cozy area
and silent... the only sound
that could be heard, was the
serenity exuding from the flicker of flame
that burned ever-so brightly, from a nearby candle
and this candle spoke to her in many
different velocities, each word whispered
differently and the warmth kept her secure
its deep red color, brought her back memories
of Christmases spent with her loved ones
its scent seemed to carry her back to
the sweet nostalgia of a love once
proclaimed and for an instant, she was
happy to remember
but as all good things must, this moment
too passed and the candle burned white.
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Dear man in the moon,
cradle me in your smile
dance with me
among the stars
and help me lose
track of time
Dear man in the moon,
i felt as though
the earth was breaking
leaving my feet
free of solid ground
and when he holds my hand
he holds my heart
Dear man in the moon,
wipe away any fear inside me
please
don't let me hide away
in fear, please
Dear man in the moon
shine away your love on me
and don't cast me in
your shadows...
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To David
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you always make
me laugh
and you treat me
like a princess
your smile is
made of sunshine
and you make
me feel free
by all your sweet
kisses.
I love you always
and forever.
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~never let the sun set
tomorrow
before it rises today...~
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See? i write poetry about David and it sucks. Why?! =(. I can only keep trying. Maybe I just love him so much I can't put it into words. Lol! Yes, that's it. I'll go with that. Man oh MAN!
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