Hey sweets!
Ugh, I did not sleep well. I had dreams and everything, just kept waking up to pee. I had this really weird dream I'm trying to remember but I can only remember bits and pieces of it. Like... apparently there was a trip of some sort, I think I was going to your house but it looked different. I got there and my boyfriend's dog, Killer, was there and all these poisonous animals kept showing up to try and hurt him; a large snake, a few different kinds of large cats, etc. But he never got hurt, he would just play with them. At one point I went outside to get a break and my friend Dani showed up and she wanted me to see this present I was supposedly involved in giving to her mom for her birthday. It was a beautiful design and when our hands touched we both said, "sorry" and then I had this thought that we have grown too far apart because we used to not care how close we were. Maybe that's because in real life that is definitely true, once upon a time she and her sister used to be my best friends. Sometimes I wonder how they could both just forget that we were ever close, but at least Dani seems to acknowledge me, at least on Facebook. But you know... It makes me appreciate the friendships that I have now and I realize that no one is who they were 10 years ago and if we were meant to be forever friends we wouldn't have let anything get in the way of our friendships. And just because we're all grown up now and have our own lives doesn't mean that I'm the only one who thinks about these things. I need to realize that people probably think of me in the same way and remember the same things as I do, but most people are too far away from their former selves to delve too much into those memories. Dani traveled all the way to Hollywood to get away from her past and my friend Jackie joined the army to get away from hers. I have a friend I've had since kindergarten, Emily, who I keep at a distance because I feel like I can't tell her certain things. You are one of the only people I feel really knows me and even when we were both sick we held onto each other for dear life, that's how much we wanted to stay in each other's lives.
It had never hurt so much in my entire life not to have you to talk to, but you are the only person who really understood that. You understood why I couldn't stay away because even though you were scared of getting hurt too, I was the only person who really understood you, too. I have never had a friend fight that hard for me and that's why I feel like you are more than just a best friend, you are my sister. I thought high school was rough, but these past 10 years have really shown me what I'm made of. And you are one of the only people that has seen me through it all.
Ugh--okay I am done with that mushy crap. I must be getting my period or something, lol. Okay so I am not even anywhere near finished in my Degrassi timelines. But before I bore you with all the stories, I'm going to make a quick list of my favorites (to help me stay on track): ~~~~~>
Fiona--she ended up being one of the most sensitive people on the show. At first I didn't like her at all because I thought she was just this annoying character, but I changed my mind after she got rid of her loser boyfriend. She was an alcoholic and started up a relationship with Adam who I'm not sure if you remember but he is Drew's transgender brother. I think Fiona went for him because he was originally a girl and that's how she figured out she was gay. I am really glad that she didn't drop her straight girlfriends once she figured that out because it tends to happen. Let's see, she went to rehab and missed a semester of school so she gets to make up half a year at Degrassi next year. She ended up meeting this girl named Charlie who also ended up being gay. She is a college student who is supporting herself by working at a moped/motorcycle shop. She was getting evicted by her girlfriend so Fiona asked if she wanted to move in while her mom was away on business in New York. Charlie said yes and then Fiona got bed bugs which she blamed on Charlie so they got into this huge fight. It turns out that Fiona's mother brought them back from her business trip (oops). After that calmed down, Charlie and Fiona decided they liked each other and decided to go for a relationship but that came screeching to a halt when Charlie brought over some champagne to celebrate and Fiona had to break the news that she was an alcoholic. They realized they didn't know each other that well and Charlie moved out. Then everyone was getting ready for prom and Fiona asked Charlie but only as friends. She found out that Charlie had a girlfriend and got so upset she ended up getting really drunk and set Charlie's cat free. In the morning she felt so bad about it she told Charlie the truth and then went to see and patch things up with Holly J. Then made flyers for Charlie's cat but he had already been found (yay). She decided to check herself into rehab because she had only been sober for 3 months before this happened.
Ugh--it's 2:15pm and I still need to get dressed and start helping my mom. If I'm lucky I will get to go to the New Age store later but not sure if that will be possible today. Might have to wait till next week. But I still HAVE TO go to the library and drop some stuff off that is way overdue.
Love ya!
Rita
2:17pm
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