August 3rd, 2011

August 3rd, 2011
2:18pm

Ugh, I have to get timesheets again.  I'm just going to have my dad call either today or tomorrow.

So.. You like Craig.  This is a huge shocker ::rolls eyes::.  I don't think he's a bad guy.  I mostly just think he's annoying and was trying to kiss up to me bad, which I hate.  It was moreso his parents that were bugging the shit out of me because... well, you know why.  I have no problems with him as long as he treats you right.  Robert really did miss out.

And I think it's crazy that Erin is taking you to The Voice.  Not because you don't deserve to go because I think you would have a blast and it would be amazing if you got picked.  But please keep in mind that even if you don't, it doesn't mean that you don't have talent.  I have seen you push away the things you want too much because of what other people want for you.  You are doing this for you and that alone is awesome in my book.  I only wish that I could be the one to take you instead of Erin, but oh well.

This is going to sound fucked up and you don't have to like what I'm about to say (which is why I've chosen to say it in the notebook rather than actually talk to you about it), but I don't trust Erin.  Like, I don't believe that this act of kindness is completely selfless and I feel like it's a trap or she is going to hold it over your head that she did you this awesome favor and try to take any credit for "discovering" you. I may be wrong, but that's just how I feel.
Technically, she did push you into going to karaoke regularly and now you have this amazing confidence that you never had before.  But that's where it ends.  I just think it's funny that SHE'S the one who went to music school and YOU'RE the one who got someone to want to sing with you.  Who knows?  Maybe she is seeing how well you're doing without her and misses your friendship.  I am not fully opposed to you being friends with her.  I just feel like you've outgrown her.  In a lot of ways I'm grateful to her because she was there for you when I couldn't be.  But that doesn't mean I have to like or respect her.

It is nice not being glued to my TV right now.  I actually did some yoga, read, and now I am going to read some of my emails and maybe study a bit.  I need to make time today and tomorrow to study because this weekend is gonna be hella busy.  Friday I will be hanging out with Monique, Saturday she will be staying over and Sunday is Ren fair.

Oh, I hope you like how I've organized the nb.  I tried to space out everything evenly so hopefully it won't get too crowded.  As much of the stumble upon.com websites are in here, after I'm done with the ones I have, I won't be printing any more out.  So at the end you will get a list of all the websites I wanted to show you but couldn't.

Alright, time to empty my inbox.  Wish me luck!  Lol.

Love,
Rita

2:46pm
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7:56pm

Hey Chels,
Meh.  I have been bored all day.  No plans with anyone, just chilling in my room all day.  I was so bored I managed to study for like half an hour but even that got boring.  It's funny -- when I just want to rest I have everyone calling me asking if I want to hang out.  But on those rare occasions that I'm actually by myself, most of the time I can entertain myself like there's no tomorrow.  But today I was just bored out of my skull.  I couldn't focus on anything.  Speaking -- fuck I lost my train of thought, lol.  Today wasn't a TOTAL loss, though.  I did yoga and found the baseball I caught.  My mom is going to get it signed for me, which I think is awesome.

So, apparently I have yet another fun filled weekend to look forward to.  Friday I am spending the night at Monique's and then Saturday night she is spending the night over here and Sunday is Ren fair.  I reeeeallllllyyyy hope I get my paycheck by then.  I will have roughly $81.50 to spend on you, Beverly, and Barry if I see something he might like.  Meh, I won't have that much but I hope that not everything I like will be expensive (and maybe I can get my mom to buy me something if I like it enough lol).

Ugh, I have to take a bath, I am stinky.  And apparently (maybe) seeing Barry later. I think I will at least take a short one so I can soak and wash my hair.  A shower would be so much easier but I want a bath.  What I should have done was take one earlier but oh well.

Love you!
Rita

8:26pm