3:54pm
Hey Chels!
Ugh! I am so emotional today. I have no idea why, yesterday I was so tired and today I just want to tell everyone what for and cry. I had the urge again to write a letter to Brian's friend, Lauren (not the bitch who married Earnest). I want to tell her I'm happy that she got away from that shithead, Drew. But I can't because she will tell Brian and then Brian will be all interested in the whole thing and I just... can't deal with him right now. So as much as I want to talk to her, I'm not gonna put her in the middle of something she doesn't need to be in the middle of. Although, I'm not really sure why you are friends with Brian again, on face book at least. You can be friends with whoever and I trust you not to say anything to him about me but I just don't get why you'd be friends with him again after that whole Kristie thing. I just don't get that. I just don't want you to get sucked into all his drama. Oh! I did find out that Earnest had 5 beers at his bachelor party and Lauren accused him of cheating on her (or something to that effect). Apparently she is still insecure and still thinks he's gonna do that. If you think someone would cheat on you, why get married? Oh-- I found this out through Earnesto, one of Earnest's old bandmates.
I don't get it. They have been together since 2006. Why be together for so long if you don't trust the person? Earnest would never cheat because -- well -- apparently he enjoys being bossed around by a 23 year old. She needs to just shut up about it and move on with her life. Earnest made his choice -- he chose her over a lot of things, but he chose her just the same -- so she should just count her blessings. She should be thankful that someone wanted to marry her. And she should consider herself lucky that she has someone like Earnest who just wants to take care of her. In other words, stop being so fucking selfish!
Ugh. So anywho, yeah last night my friend Rachel (who I met through Alex) had this fb post ("like this post and I'll tell you why I like you") and I responded to it. She told me I was a thoughtful person for getting that Christina poster for her and I said I still have it. She said that she'd figure something out, she still owes Matt bday drinks.
Ugh! I'm not gonna drive up there to see him, especially when I wrote that note and he never responded. Well, not like I gave him a chance, but if he really wanted to he could have found a way. I could deal with him if there were lots of other people around but not if it was just us 3 (or 4 if his gf came, 5 if David came). You don't just invest all that time into a friendship just to throw it away.
4:27pm
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5:42pm
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Hey Chels,
Well, I am not asleep, but I want to try and write again. To be honest, I don't like taking naps. For some reason I have really bad dreams when I have naps. They're like all intense and vivid and I just don't like them. Anyhow, so I have a lot to catch you up on, starting with Friday. I took my dad to his stroke club meeting and then was on my way to Alex's house. She is fostering dogs and had 2 puppies, George and Olivia, at the house. They also had adopted this dog named Gary that had been her first foster dog and had been horribly abused. It was exhausting but I had so much fun with her and Danny and my nephew. She asked about Barry and I told her he hasn't met my parents yet but I met his because he used to live with his mom and I met his dad on the day he moved out. She said I always seem to pick the boys with drama and my point was that he doesn't need my help with anything, doesn't need me to fix anything, the only thing I really help with is taking his dog out if he is unable to and that one time I helped him with his car. But he never asks for money or makes me feel like I should be helping. It's his house and his life and he's not looking at me for anything more than my company. If he was trying to ask me for money or try and rush me into being serious I wouldn't stand for it. Serious to me means talking about living together and all of that, I've already been through all of that. I'm glad to have found someone who understands that relationships take time to figure out where things are gonna go and no one is getting anywhere by manipulating or guilting someone into staying with you. I know Alex is just looking out for me and yeah there is some family drama, but he has a relationship with both his parents and he doesn't talk badly about either one of them. It got weird for me though -- things were fine until we started smooching and then his mom wouldn't talk to me or at least say "hi" and I'm the guest at her house, I'm gonna at least be polite and say "hi".
Anywho, I didn't stay too long, got home around 10pm and Mr Barry asked if I wanted to go over there but I was too exhausted. I did see him on Saturday, though. Library + Barry = perfect Saturday, lol. I would have stayed overnight but I had that meetup the next day and I didn't have a change of clothes or anything.
6:36pm
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