April 15th, 2011

April 15th, 2011
1:07am
Notice the time?

Dear God,
I wish I could be there for my friend Chelsea right now but I can't physically.  So I am just going to ask you to please put your loving arms around her and give her a sense of peace.  It is really easy to be depressed over everything, but a weaker person does not have her spirit.  I truly admire her for that.  Please do what you can to calm her down so she can focus on only the positive things about herself.  Please quiet her mind and heart of everything she knows is not the truth.  She is beautiful inside and out, and any man worthy of her will treat her with nothing but the respect she deserves.

In Jesus' name,
Amen
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Wow--I started praying at 1:07am, that was the number that was following me around a couple weeks ago.  I am going to make this list and then go to sleep because I am just wiped out.

Reasons Why Chelsea Loomis (NOT Sims) is NOT a failure:
You put your heart and soul into everything you do.
You get out of bed every morning.
You have a life outside of the internet.
You got out of a toxic relationship.  Not everyone has the strength to do that.
You have really been there for me this past year when I really needed someone.  You have let me be there for you.
You have a passion for everything creative--I think that's why I was attracted to you (not in a sexual way.)
You proved yourself trustworthy in the biggest way ever--when Brian started hounding you for info and you never said a word when you could have.
I have seen everything you went through in Ohio and I was there when you had to be rescued by your dad.  From that time on I vowed never to abandon you again because I hated that I did when you were so sick.  And yet you never held that against me.
You put yourself through school twice since you've been home.
You take care of (put up with) your dad even though you don't have to.  He should kiss the ground you walk on--not every parent has a kid who still talks to them after a certain age.
You have such a huge heart.  You give everyone chances and you really stand up for those who need it.  I personally think you are TOO nice at times, but you know who's got your back as well.
You never ever give up facing each day as it comes.  Some people just say, "ugh I am too tired to get out of bed," so they don't--for days or weeks.  You were there.  But you pulled yourself out of it and you won't let anything stop you.
You are still capable of love even after everything you have been through.
You never gave up on me or our friendship.

And that's just all I could think of at 1am.

Love,
Me

1:35am