10:54am
Hey Chels,
Wow I feel like it's been way too long since I've written in here. Maybe because I have stories to tell you from last Friday that I haven't been able to yet. But I want to start with a dream I had this morning because it was highly disturbing and the reason why I'm up so early. So, I was at this school, and it was like summer camp only it was winter out because there was snow on the ground. Everyone had to bundle up. We all had to sign up for these different classes and Dr Drew was supposed to teach this health seminar. It ended up being that we were supposed to show a diagram of our vaginas to see how they worked or something. Well, there were 5 girls in the seminar. He comes in and starts asking who wants to go first. I tell the girl next to me that if we go first we'll get it over with quicker and so we both raise our hands. Dr Drew was like, "oh yeah? You really want to go first? Prove it." And the girl next to me raised her hand higher. Oh, he did tell us beforehand that he was going to touch us but I think we all felt like it wasn't really going to happen. So then he told the girl she had to take her underpants off and touch herself so he could get himself off. He said something like not to worry about him touching the rest of us, he should be able to get himself off the first time. Well, as he started touching her I just took off. I went to go find a teacher and she walked me to the principal. I told him what happened and he was like, "yeah that's not supposed to happen," so he dismisses the class so I can take him back to the tent. But as I am going back to the tent I get woken up by this huge dump truck outside. And I don't even want to go back to sleep.
The only thing I can think of is that Dr Drew represents someone to me but I am unsure who yet. Maybe I see him as an authoritative figure of some sort. The 5 girls is the number 5 that's been following me around like mad and the fact that I ran to get help means that whatever was going on I wasn't going to stand for it. I was with Monique yesterday and there was a lot of talk of child molesters and we went to Walgreens where I saw this new product that Dr Drew came up with. Maybe the molestation was an abuse of power. So maybe someone that I have looked up to in a past life (because it's never happened to me in this one) abused his power and I got away, but wasn't meant to see what came next.
Well, today is the first day in 6 days where I actually have some time to myself so I am going to finish the chapter I'm reading in my book, watch some more Boy Meets World, and then write some more. I would do it now but it's just too much.
<3,
Me
11:31am
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