Damn we were in the middle of talking and battery died. Then you wouldn't answer your phone. I hope you're not mad at me. But you probably just don't have the phone close by, or you don't feel chatty--it's okay. Fuck, I can't stop coughing. I'm gonna die I think.
Sigh. Well, I'm really worried about you. But, I think you need head clearing time so I'll write in here but I probably won't like, call you or Im you or anything. I figure if you need me, you'll let me know. But sometimes being a friend means stepping back and giving the other person time.
D is driving me crazy playing the same song over and over. Now he's looking over my shoulder. That's so annoying. I deserve to have stuff private. Sigh.
I sigh a lot. Jesus it's not even 10:30 and I'm sleepy. I hate that. And tomorrow I have major cleaning to do. OMG this song. D Stoooooop! (zombie nation). Ok, this is like the 20th time, now he's doing one of his little mixes. Ugh.
I bitch a lot. My bad. Let's see 5 things I am grateful for right now:
--D loving music
--my own place
--our friendship
--having thyroid rx finally
--movies (?)
Boo, I don't know. My husband is such a fucker! Geeze. No, not really. I lub him berry much. But sometimes I just want to strangle him to death!
He was so happy to hear me admit to being jealous of that J girl in Ohio. He says it means I care about him. Well duh! Of course I care about him. But why do I have to be jealous of other girls for him to know I care? I'm not usually jealous and it bothers him. Because of S he's too jealous! And it drives me nuts. Lol.
When I left TDN, this girl J started working there. And she wasn't really attractive at all. (She looks like Harry Potter). I guess she was getting a divorce, and when I left Ohio, she and D became friends. I think she tried to play the damsel in distress card so she and D would become more than friends. I never trusted her, and now I know why.
J tells me she's basically a bar whore. Not only that but she's either tried to or has slept with every guy at TDN.
She's the one who gave D $100.00 to get down here but I always wondered if there was ulterior motives behind it all. I dunno why I'm writing about this lol. Sorry <3
I wonder who Ellen will have on the show tomorrow... someone good I hope!
Damn I know my family sucks and all for stuff but I'm depressed that they won't be here for my birthday or Christmas this year. I think Thanksgiving/b'day/Christmas will be lonely for me this year. I know I have D but still.
I donno maybe not.
Oh my foot fell asleep. I hate that, cuz I wake it up and for like 20 seconds it's okay, and then that "I'm asleep pain" kicks in. Mean foot!
Man, I dunno what to get D and S for a wedding gift and I have nothing to wear. Fuck. I just realized this. Grrrr.
Crap! Did I startle you?
WTF all of a sudden D is in cleaning mode? I'm confused. I wanted movie/popcorn time with him. =(.
Well, I'm done rambling for now. Much <3
C
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