12:29am
Hey honey,
Woo I'm writing more than once in a week!! You should be proud, lol. Today was a very long but ultimately good day. I didn't get to work much on anything I wanted to because my friend Alex came to visit my dad in the hospital so I stayed there until I had to pick Mark up from work. We got home and I was so tired from driving in the snow that I didn't want to work on anything. But tomorrow I am going to be emersed in volume 5 and I can't wait. And 12. I can't wait to see how many books I'll be done with by the time you get here. I only have a couple months but I think I can get all the notebooks done and ready to go. I know you like my handwriting but I have so much typed that it's so much easier to type it out. But I will throw some surprises in there. I just don't want what I have so far to take forever, you know? I know it's kind of cheating but I promise to make some sort of compromise so you get your hand written entries and I get my typed entries. I don't mind writing, I really don't. It's just that it takes such a long time. But I promise that no matter what, you will get the originals of almost all the books and then some.
I am having so much fun going through all of these books, let me tell you. It has been such a journey for the both of us. I am really happy that things turned out the way they did because you are a sister to me. I dunno if you had a chance to talk to Angel yet but from what you both have told me, it sounds like you are going through a lot of things that she has gone through regarding her empathy. Now... the one thing you have to know is that being empathetic isn't a bad thing. You have a big heart and you can't help caring for people. But it can be chaotic and exhausting if not dealt with properly. And what I mean by that is, like with anything, it needs to learn to be managed. When you feel a certain way and you have no idea why, ask yourself where that emotion is coming from. If it's coming from you, honor it and deal with it. But if it's not yours, just cut it off so it can't effect you. I know how I do that, but it may not be the same for every person. I just shield myself from emotions that aren't mine. Sometimes I appear to be a cold hearted bitch, but that's just me shutting down someone's hurtful projections that have nothing to do with me. I'm sure that Angel can better guide you to how you can protect yourself and I think it helps to bring an unbiased party in.
I just hope that when you do get to talk to her, you can finally get some of these burdens off of you.
Anyway... I dunno who that Dominique person is but in today's world of facebook and smartphones, I highly doubt it would be so easy to forget that you were having a party. I mean, you'd have to not check facebook at all for like 5 years for something like that to happen. But instead of saying something snotty like I wanted I just said something different. That my phone always tells me when there's an event. So even if you forget to check fb, it's still there staring you in the face, virtually making it impossible to forget..... lol.
At any rate, I'm going to get going for now. I love you and I hope you don't think any less of me if I end up having to print out all the rest of my back entries, lol.
I love you!!
R bo b
12:55am
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