2:46pm
Hey Chels,
Ugh I feel like I've been neglecting this too much. I also feel like I say that too much so instead of always feeling guilty, I'm just going to write when I can and give you as much information as I can every time I write so you don't miss anything. So... Sunday I broke up with Joe. Although to him we can't "break up" because we were never officially together. But you can still break things off with someone even though it's not a real break up. Just like you can break up with a friend by not seeing them anymore. You know what I had texted him, and then later he said it was a bummer because he was going to miss "kissing my pouty lips" lol. And it sucked because we would have been good for each other. I believed that too. I just knew in my heart that if Mike had known that Joe and I were dating, especially if things got serious, it would have ended badly. Not really because Joe is letting Mike run his life or whatever, but more so because I know how Mike is as a person. He'd never be okay with us dating. And not only that, he would proceed to cause drama and heartache for me. And I don't need that. So... I just figured it was a lot easier for everyone involved that that didn't happen. It sucks because he did make me happy but I know it's for the best. In my heart I feel at peace and that's really all that matters to me.
As for Larry, I don't really know what's going to happen. But... Right now I'm not letting myself worry about it. I have had just about all I need with the boy drama for a while so I'm going to take this chance to regroup and see what happens later on. I just don't feel the same anxiety I did before when it comes to him. Brb.
2:57pm
3:11pm
Okay I'm back. I'm at the hospital with my dad, now I just got in the car. We had to take him to an epilepsy specialist today. I just wish I could have slept longer. I swear my sleep schedule is all kinds of messed up right now. Ugh. So anyway, back to what I was saying. I'm not as crazy worried about Larry as I was before. Yes, I still have feelings for him (obviously), but I just don't have that feeling of urgency about having to be with him like before. I guess because so much time has passed, and I've been with a couple of different people now, I just feel better on my own. So... We shall see what unravels, lol.
Anyway, aside from that mess, I've just been trying to study and I don't think I'm going to get everything done this month but at least I'm getting something done. I already figured out May is my creative month, where I will be working on my dresses and tarot cards and stuff. So... I hope I get a lot of questions done this month. I need to sort all that stuff out.
Ugh I'm starving. And still waiting for you to send the nb!! I can't wait!!
Love you,
Rita Bo bita
3:22pm
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