September 26th, 2008

September 26th, 2008
1:16am

Well… I am giving up.  Not on love altogether, but just on Mike.  I mean… I’ve seen the guy twice since I’ve been here, the second time being extremely sexy.  And now he’s not really talking to me, not really wanting to see me so… whatever.  It’s not like I want a relationship but I did want a fair chance to get to know him.  But the thing is… he doesn’t ever let his guard down.  He won’t ever just be real with me.  So… I’m afraid I’m gonna have to let this one go and just leave him alone for a while.  Besides, it’s his loss if he doesn’t want to talk to me or get to know me.  I really am a nice girl.  So… pffffft on him.  :).  Oh and I decided to plan on vacation roughly for the week in January to Florida.  That is… if I can.  I’m going to rent a hotel room with a jaccuzi in it, lay on the beach, just enjoy myself.  That’s my long term goal.  Oh and to pass my test.

<3,
me

1:26am
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7:11pm

So, today was a good day.  I took my dad to the Arlington Race Track.  It was really nice there.  I didn’t text Mike at all today, either, which I am very proud of myself for.  If he wants to see me he knows my number, but it seems like he didn’t like the way I did something so he is blowing me off.  So… what the hell, man?  Men are useless. USELESS!!  Hmph.

You know what I was thinking?  This past August, Brian didn’t even remember our anniversary on the 14th.  And on the 15th (which was the same day I went to the movies with Ryan), it was the 2 year anniversary of the day we got engaged, and he didn’t say anything.  We did have sex but that was about it.  We had been living separate lives for a while, starting with the rise of WOW.  It pisses me off that he’s telling people that he “caught me cheating on him.” You know… whatever.  If someone asks why or if I had a reason for doing what I did… I hope he tells them what he did.  He’s basically crawling back to all his old friends.  On some levels this bothers me, but most of his friends are shitheads anyways.  I am so glad that I don’t have to see or talk to any of his stupid friends anymore.

7:30pm