September 21st, 2008

September 21st 2008
9:34am

Ugh I am awake and it's 9:30am. I just had the worst dream ever. First I dreamed that my tongue guard kept falling out. But then... I had a dream about Mike.  And Brian. I dreamed that I went over to Mike's house and I was looking for him,  remembering a room I had never been in before. And I couldn't find him so I went outside and I heard a familiar voice. Brian's.  Then Mike came outside and lit up a cigarette (he doesn't smoke in real life)  and I just hid behind him thinking,  "Oh crap,  this isn't good."  I told Brian to go away but he followed me in the house. Then I woke up. I dunno what it means... Probably that Brian would definitely not be okay with me dating anyone. But you know what I say? Too bad.  Man.. I think I am going to take this job that my cousin Amy wants me to. It's full time. So I'd be working 40 hours instead of 20. I could do so much more with that money. Like finally pay off my credit card bills and what I owe to Comcast and FPL and whatever damages Brian did. I can finally put some money in my bank account and savings so when the student loans kick back in i can pay those off so much easier. I think I'm gonna give myself an adjustment of like 3 months before applying to take my test.
That doesn't mean I won't study,  I just need to be fully ready.  Oh and I'm also going to get myself a massage slash spa day,  makeover,  haircut type thing with my money cuz I freaking deserve it,  I think.  Maybe get a membership to Massage Envy.

I really hope Mike contacts me soon cuz I haven't heard from him all week and I'm feeling kind of stalkery by texting him and then staring at my phone for the rest of the day. So I dunno... Should I keep trying or just let him come to me?  He knows where I am so I'm going to say that he can find me.  I'll try one more time though,  maybe tonight.

I have a democratic rally today.  I get to call people and ask them to vote for Obama.  Fun!

10:04 a.m.