Sunday, June 8, 2014

September 20th, 2008

September 20th,  2008
11:38am

Ack! I need to stop obsessing over why I haven't heard from Mike. You know... He's talked about how we'll never know what could be and now there's a chance and I haven't heard from him all week.

Dear God,
I have no idea what my problem is. I guess I just don't know what to think about Mike and this whole situation. I just need a sign that I am more to him than sex.  I'm not sure if I can even handle more than just friends right now. I guess my prayer today is that I want to know if he is thinking the same things as me.  I am perfectly okay with the sexual relationship just because I have a bit of history with this person. I don't begrudge him finding love,  but I don't want our chance to slip away either if that's what's meant to happen. I know you know what is in both of our hearts and I trust that whatever happens is your will.

In Jesus' name,
Amen

I feel better now. Praying usually helps.  I dunno if there will be a love connection but I'd at least like to find out. Alright... I am gonna stop obsessing about this and just give it to God to do what he will with it.  I hope I hear from him,  hopefully that will give me some answers.

Love,
Me

12:05pm

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