12:04am
I got a very interesting call from Margarita tonight. I am thinking that Brian read more than he told me and he was also snooping around in my private conversations and that's why he put the virus on there {the computer} himself. Well, if he happens to recover any of my conversations... it should be very interesting. Especially in the past few weeks. But so be it. I am a very sexual person. At first he could keep up with me but after he got interested in WOW, it left me alone in more ways than one. and in the past few months, everytime we had sex, if I wanted him to go down on me it had to be a certain way. It's fun and all but sometimes it's nice to just lay back and let someone please you. And not to mention he always wanted me on top first.
You know... I never even had sex until my ex, Mike. And he left me sexually frustrated most of the time. And with Brian the sex was beautiful. We connected and we were in love so it was more than just the physical act of sex. But in the past few months... I guess I just wanted to take care of myself more than I wanted to make love to him. I guess that's what I found in Ryan. Nothing serious just pleasurable. Well, almost. I'm 25. If I don't enjoy myself (respectfully) now... when am I ever going to? I think it's bogus that Brian wanted me to tell him whenever I was horny {just like Mike... lazy asses--11/3/13}. Like I should be honored that he would stop his game for me.
Now with Mike... who knows when all that will happen. But at least I have the option now.
12:23am
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