October 30th, 2008

October 30th, 2008
12:53pm

I feel bad for Chelsea.  She and David are divorcing.  Finally, I feel bad for what she’s going through but at the same time, she had to go through something like that.  I guess now she’s living with her dad. I dunno why she got married in the first place.  But oh well.

I went to the Victoria’s Secret website and found these really cute outfits that i want to get for when I visit Ryan.  I’ll put it in later.

Love,
me

12:58pm
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9:29pm

I love all those, but I’m gonna pick 3 out of all the more sexy ones, and one or two pairs of the comfy jammies, maybe for the first night.  I also decided that I’m gonna email my mom, tell her the truth about where I’ll be.  She can’t stop me from going anywhere, but she has a right to know where I’ll be and that I will most definitely be safe.  I’ll say that I talked to Kristie and she said her parents wouldn’t let me stay that long and I had mentioned to Ryan that I was planning the trip and he asked if I wanted to stay with him and I said sure.  He bought my ticket for me and I told my work that i was going on vacation and they said it was okay.

I can’t believe Chelsea and David are FINALLY getting a divorce.  I’m sad for her that she’s going through all this, but in a way I feel relieved.  I’ve been waiting for her to get rid of him since the moment they started going out.  He is so full of shit. She deserves someone who will be fully honest with her and who won’t constantly push her down.  He never trusted her and the Ryan thing made it worse.  But she has to find someone that will treat her so well she won’t even want to think about Ryan.  In the same way that I need to find someone who won’t make me wish I was single again.  I won’t know what this new notebook will look like.

Man, I am exhausted.  Sometimes I want to text Mike.  It pisses me off that he just blew me off like that.  I dunno what he expected of me, but I let him go farther than I do most people and it still wasn’t enough.  And now I’m not even good enough for him to text once in a while.  I just wanted to get to know the guy.  And I will admit that my pride is hurt quite a bit. Ugh.  Men!

I can’t wait to be in FL.  The weather out here is starting to really suck.

9:51pm