3:19pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JEN!
Well, I have not heard from Ryan. Maybe a couple things but that's it. I think he’s scared of me right now thanks to Ms Mother Nature. {or he’s throwing a fit because he’s a baby and it shouldn’t matter if I’m talking to you or not.} Dammit, oh well. I left my phone in the car so I wouldn’t be tempted to look at it every two minutes. If he likes me, he won’t hold this against me and he’ll get over it. And if he is gonna be an asshole then he’s not worth my time anymore. But I’m still not ready to have a serious relationship. I like him and everything, but I can’t treat him like a rebound. I left Brian because he wasn’t right for me and he was abusive. But mostly, I left because he wanted to get married and I didn’t. I was just agreeing with Ryan about it not being serious and he said I was acting weird. But I only brought it up because of what he said that surprised me.
Ooh!! I have the perfect Christmas idea. I am going to take a really sweet picture of myself and then buy (or make) a turtle picture frame and frame it for him. I think that would be perfect. And also I want to take a bunch of pictures and get them printed and then put them in an album and send it to him. I do think I deserve someone who can make me happy and he does. I don’t need to explain this to myself, i already know what’s in my heart. I just hope that he’ll miss me soon and talk to me again cuz I miss that. But as much as I do miss it, I could use a break. So I’ll look at it as a blessing, and hope that we can move on. Well, move past this. {wow i am a huge idiot.}
3:38pm
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