10:44pm
Blah! I have to get up early tomorrow and I’m not looking forward to it. I have another client who is from 8am to 10am. Then I come home and then get to my other client’s house. Then at 4 I am finally finished. Whee, not. Lol. I am looking forward to getting paid on Friday because I can pay some of my bills, FINALLY put some money in the bank, and then go shopping for my trip.
I guess today was the first time Ryan and I talked on the phone since having some version of “the talk.” It felt a little nervewracking to hear his voice but comforting at the same time. I remember when I first heard Brian’s voice… it was like magic. And I was so in love with him. I knew he was “the One.” Now it’s like… I really like Ryan, but it’s not the same. I know it’s mainly because I’m not ready for anything serious. I just want to take this one sssssssllllllllloooooooowwwwww. My heart is telling me that it’s okay to explore things and it’s still okay to follow my instincts. I am glad that it’s long distance only because I need to be with my family right now. I am still healing.
I promise, heart, that I will be kind to you. I won’t give you anything that you can’t handle. And thank you to God for answering my prayers.
Love,
me
11:01pm
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